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Thursday, March 31, 2005


Animals in Transition
Temple Grandin

"Temple Grandin's insights are absolutely fascinating and ground breaking contributions in the field of animal awareness." - Alex Shoumatoff, Murder in the Rain Forest

Product Description:
[from amazon.com]

Temple Grandin's Animals in Translation speaks in the clear voice of a woman who emerged from the other side of autism, bringing with her an extraordinary message about how animals think and feel.

Temple's professional training as an animal scientist and her history as a person with autism have given her a perspective like that of no other expert in the field. Standing at the intersection of autism and animals, she offers unparalleled observations and groundbreaking ideas about both.

Autistic people can often think the way animals think -- in fact, Grandin and co-author Catherine Johnson see autism as a kind of way station on the road from animals to humans -- putting autistic people in the perfect position to translate "animal talk." Temple is a faithful guide into their world, exploring animal pain, fear, aggression, love, friendship, communication, learning, and, yes, even animal genius. Not only are animals much smarter than anyone ever imagined, in some cases animals are out-and-out brilliant.

The sweep of Animals in Translation is immense, merging an animal scientist's thirty years of study with her keen perceptions as a person with autism -- Temple sees what others cannot.

Among its provocative ideas, the book:

argues that language is not a requirement for consciousness -- and that animals do have consciousness

applies the autism theory of "hyper-specificity" to animals, showing that animals and autistic people are so sensitive to detail that they "can't see the forest for the trees" -- a talent as well as a "deficit"

explores the "interpreter" in the normal human brain that filters out detail, leaving people blind to much of the reality that surrounds them -- a reality animals and autistic people see, sometimes all too clearly

explains how animals have "superhuman" skills: animals have animal genius

compares animals to autistic savants, declaring that animals may in fact be autistic savants, with special forms of genius that normal people do not possess and sometimes cannot even see

examines how humans and animals use their emotions to think, to decide, and even to predict the future

reveals the remarkable abilities of handicapped people and animals

maintains that the single worst thing you can do to an animal is to make it feel afraid

Temple Grandin is like no other author on the subject of animals because of her training and because of her autism: understanding animals is in her blood and in her bones.

I feel that anyone who has pets or farm animals or actually any animals of any type, would benefit from this book of Grandin's.

I, myself, have spent a few spare minutes at the Barnes and Noble coffee shop reading a bit of this book.

there was for me, a high level functioning adult autistic man, an eye opening
paragraph, in this here book!

Grandin found that, over the years, she has tried Vegetarianism, and found that
it was *worse* than "it did not help her"! After a terrible period of
low low functioning spacyness, she went back to eating meat.
She found that she has to eat MORE meat than the average person! She found, I believe, that this held true for many other autistic people! She becomes convinced that there very metabolism is affected, in Autism, so that meat eating is more important, in the diet.

I have found this too. I need a lot of meat, and when I eat a lot of red meat, my thinking is much more focused, and my mood is better, and the "negative" symptoms of autism are reduced.
I would now acually recommend that for all autistic people that this should be investigated: to eat a lot of meat, red meat, and other high protein foods.

This places me outside of the "new agers" thinkings, of course! But then again, I have to do this, like I have to do with most collective beliefs!

An animal lover who eats meat? One might think that Temple grandin would not touch meat, but then again the native Americans had a saying about how they give a prayer to Spirit, and to the animal that they are about to hunt, to give thanks for their brother who has to die so that other people can live on its flesh!

I, myself, in my dabblings with vegetarianism, I have always suffered for this diet, even if I do not eat meat for a couple of days! I need twice as much meat, maybe more, than the average person, I have found.

I remember 1970s Ithaca new York...On the same block was Moosewood restaurant, and around the block was a hometown cafe where the John Birchers would eat, the local chapter's people would come there often. I ate at Moosewood to feed my soul, but I would have to eat twice or three times, for each moosewood visit, at that cafe, so to feed my body!

I have a saying...."If feets no good, then do not even bother to set out of the house"! [gotta have good shoes!]
---my "feet", here, is my physical body that my soul "sits on". Is PART OF, as well.
thus if body is not right, the soul suffers!

one listens to the collective belief system, coming from the new agers, and even from the church, about the unimportance of the physical body form, and then place mind/soul over the body, in importance; then you place your health at risk, your very soul becoming crippled, in its growth, as the soul needs that Interface called "the body"!!

the best Quality Film, placed in a old battered cheap camera, with scratched lens and light leaks, will not produce very good pictures!

Tuesday, March 29, 2005


Conspiracy theories have always been with us, but they have become extremely popular in recent years. Offering simple answers to extremely complex questions, they are seductive to those who do not examine issues too closely. They also appeal to those who harbor deep-seated resentments against "the rich," "the powerful," "the Jews," or whatever other group a person might envy and wish to see brought down. (See my book

Resentment Against Achievement
for a great deal more about this.]

---his article on this book, is below-----

Resentment Against Achievement
Prometheus Books, Buffalo, NY, 1988, Cloth, $27.95. ISBN 0-87975-447-8.
From SUCCESS Magazine, November, 1988, p. 4:
Editor's Note by Scott DaGarmo

Resentment Against Achievement - A Motivational Tour de Force

"Wealth is crime enough to him that's poor."
-Sir John Denham (1615-1669)
Those who hate achievement have made their mark throughout history.
Angry mobs inflamed by envy destroyed the magnificent works of ancient civilization. In their insane riots, these madmen even dismembered the statues we still treasure for their beauty, despite their missing limbs.
Today we see the hatred of achievement in slashed tires, vandalized classrooms, and sabotaged office machines.
We see it in a hostile suspicion toward "greedy capitalists," who are depicted as exploiters rather than what they really are - the creators of jobs and wealth.
We see it in a surly animosity toward managers and owners, who are reviled as enemies despite the fact that they would like nothing better than to inspire the resentful with a desire to achieve. Instead of seeing employers as powerful economic allies, the resentful scorn their values, then blame "the system" on their not being able to find work.
We see it among intellectuals, who seethe with jealousy at the sight of individuals less educated than they making bigger incomes.
We see it in lower-class toughs, whose poverty is "an inevitable consequence of the achievement-hating values they preserve and (forcibly) transmit."
All this and more makes up the thesis of a new book by Robert Sheaffer entitled "Resentment Against Achievement". Subtitled "Understanding the Assault Upon Ability," the book crackles with ideas that others have failed to perceive, or have been too timid to express.
The rhetoric of resentment is highly polished, and achievers are often left speechless in its onslaught. Within this book is a reply to virtually every defense made for the resentful. For example, says the author, people do not steal because they are poor. (A fatuous notion when you note that what is stolen today are not loaves of bread and beans but luxury items like jewelry and stereos that are fenced for drugs.) Rather, they are poor because they steal. Sheaffer makes a rational - rather than moralistic - case that the "upper-class" values of honesty, reliability, self-discipline, and respect for property are integral to success for anyone.
Similarly, Sheaffer asserts that what is needed in education is nothing less than an assault on lower-class culture. Sheaffer is not talking about genocide, but about a "benign cultural imperialism" allied at recruiting lower-class members into the upper classes by teaching them how to succeed.
Don't mistake Sheaffer for a bigoted arch-conservative. He is a libertarian, with a powerful belief in individual liberties, free trade, and open opportunity. He has articulated a philosophy for a complex, urban, high-tech, competitive, entrepreneurial society - a philosophy that affirms a new-age morality based on accomplishment.
This book will offend those with rigidly conventional religious views, and I suggest they do not read it. On the other hand, those who thrive on the elixir of fresh insights will be delighted as the author excoriates religion for romanticizing, and hence perpetuating, economic incompetence. Sheaffer urges the impoverished to break away from a slave morality that encourages passivity, and embrace a new morality based on the pride of achievement.
Today, you don't need to be born wealthy to be perceived as a member of the higher classes, says Sheaffer. "Those who adopt higher-class values and ethics will find themselves gradually accumulating so much money that no one will doubt their status any longer."
He urges everyone to experience the joy of being achievers, those fortunate people who "create because of an inner fire urging them onward."
For all its harsh denunciation of the resentful, this book is a positive call to action not to harm people but to help them succeed. Some will see this work as mainly political. But the author has also written a valuable tour de force of motivation with a message for us all:
Harboring resentment is self-destructive. It keeps you from succeeding.


I will have to see if i can raed this book, i note that it is for sale at Amazon.

This idea he writes of explains SO much how so many of the iberal left/new age
people want to seem to "redistrubute the wealth", or to pull down anyone who has accomplished something!
the christian finger pointer who wants to see the end of the world to punish all our sinfull ways of having the fun that maybe the self-repressed christian is envious
of, in his own life!
There are many many who "want' to see earthquakes and the destruction of our earthly "sodom and Gormorra"!

Monday, March 28, 2005



Is This A New Dark Age?
Little proof to the contrary that we are indeed in a very long, bleak tunnel. Is there any light?
By Mark Morford, SF Gate Columnist
Friday, March 25, 2005

[the complete article is below. Then this article is followed by my COMMENTS
upon what Mark has written, a copy of which i emailed him. my comments are long, be sure to read them, after his long article!]

Then come those times when you read about a 16-year-old girl slashing the throat of a 75-year-old woman for no apparent reason, a woman who was merely walking with her husband near a Berkeley public garden and it's right next to the one about the 16-year-old kid smiling and waving and donning a bulletproof vest before shooting nine people and himself to death in a remote, poverty-stricken region of Minnesota and you can feel the numbness like a wave.
And alongside that is the morbid and insipid case of poor Terri Schiavo and the equally insipid Bush evangelicals who trumpet the backward morality of maintaining her vegetative brain-dead state and the sad, tormented parents who can't face reality and the insidious GOP that has zero shame in using her decrepit body as a political football and that kowtows to its pseudo-religious contingency by making humiliating and rather illegal congressional maneuvers to try and keep a feeding tube in place and you just go, oh my God just stop already.

And it all seems to line up with one of those weird phases when everyone in your own life seems to be getting hit by something tragic or sad or somehow ridiculously painful -- a sister with a neck trauma, a best friend going through major depression, a parent struck by illness, certainly almost everyone on the progressive Left feeling sucker-punched and morally eviscerated -- friends and family and loved ones all seeming to suffer in ways you don't want to imagine and it's all against a backdrop of more war dead and more violence and the most bleak and Bush-ravaged era in recent American history and you say to yourself, what the hell is going on?

Because something in you knows. Something in you senses there is more at play right now in the world than mere depressing coincidence, that all the war and disease and brutality has more surrounding it than mere chance or fluke. Do you think? Do you feel it?

Proof? All you have to do is spend five minutes with any true healer or energy worker or divinely connected spiritual teacher in the world right now and they all say the same thing: This is not a good time. This is not the lightest, not the brightest, not the best period to be a human being. In fact, it's one of the darkest. Fiercest. Meanest.

It is, in other words, a low period in human, and especially American, history. And it's only getting lower.

We are in dark times. Five years of economic bloodshed and three of brutal warmongering and the worst environmental president in American history and you simply cannot deny that as the ruthless American agenda goes, so goes the populace, so goes the collective attitude, the shared vibration, the health of the planet and the feeling that this particular karmic sinkhole has no known bottom.

In other words, it is all connected. It is all of a piece. There is a direct correlation between the violent and heartless tone and attitude of our country and the mental and spiritual health of its people and by way of comparison just look at the Clinton era, which brought eight years of unprecedented prosperity and peace and a nearly balanced budget and high economic flush.

It's true. There was, we forget, a decided lack of sexual anxiety and uptight moral rigidity in the nation, minimal pseudo-religious puling from the uptight Right and much moderate lawmaking and I don't care a whit for what you say about the man's personal moral compass -- under Clinton, America had deeply supportive allies, intelligent foreign policy, more genuine concern for the planet and the health of our forests and oceans and air, and we had a president who was incredibly articulate and deeply intelligent and greatly beloved the world over and the nation enjoyed one of its most prosperous and nondivisive and peaceful periods in its history.

And now, the exact opposite. Everywhere you look, the culture is fractured and divisive and mean. Everywhere you look it's war and pollution and more toxins, red versus blue, good versus evil, more garbage and less concern where to shove it, fewer restrictions on industrial polluters and fewer controls on corporate abuse and an administration that has so shamelessly leveraged the worst tragedy in American history to further its brutal and hawkish right-wing agenda it would embarrass Mussolini.

The sad fact is, there are a great many among us who believe we have entered into a new Dark Age, that it will be a long and brutal slog indeed and BushCo is merely the precursor, the devil's handmaiden, and that we have a long way to go into the bleak and the bloody and the environmentally devastating before the pendulum begins its slow swing back toward the light.

Just look around. No one anywhere, not priests, not nuns, not healers or mystics, not Christians, not pagans, not Repubs or Demos or Libertarians, no one anywhere in this country is saying, hey, doesn't it feel like we're entering into a new era of health and healing and positivism and spiritual rebirth? Aren't our schools just teeming anew with eager students who seem to be getting smarter and more articulate? Isn't the air getting cleaner and aren't we proud of our government for protecting the health of future generations by pushing for more natural foods and signing on to the Kyoto Treaty and advocating antitoxin regulations and by protecting our forests and improving school textbooks and revolutionizing the hideous national health care system?

Doesn't that tone of enthusiasm and hope sound just completely silly, wrong, out of place, like so much Prozac-grade bulls--? Damn right it does.

There's a reason for that. We are not headed for light. Not yet, anyway. The coming years are not going to be about friendship and repaired foreign relations and a sense of our shared humanity, about equality and sexual freedom and a renewed sense of human rights. To believe this is to believe in fairy tales almost as insidious and hopeless as evangelical Christians who are right now stuffing themselves with Cheez-Its and pink wine and praying for Armageddon.

So, you do what you have to do. You focus inward and work on the self and radiate as much love and open-hearted support as possible, grit your karmic teeth and hope you survive this dark house of mirrors without cancers or tumors or bloodshed or getting stabbed in the garden by a vicious teenage girl as you ignore the fact that in all of North America, from Mexico to Canada's Prince Edward Island, there exists only one state, province or territory that does not yet have a McDonald's. (Nunavut, in northern Canada, inhabited by the Inuits at a density of one person per 3,300 square miles). Small solace, indeed.

So you pray your ass off to a forgiving and ambisexual and dogma-free pantheistic feminine god and you digest the increasingly nasty headlines as best you can, ever seeking that pinpoint, that tiny speck of light way, way down, at the end of this rank and desperate tunnel. Do you see it? Is it even there? It's one of those things you just have to believe.


here is my own COMMENT to Mark's article


I am an ant trying to carry away a watermelon, a watermelon of this
huge heavy article!
At 7 am coffee, in the Tallahassee coffee shop, with the Democrat in
hand, I see now how I can Approach this article Lucidly!

[your article is only one of many *many* that I have read of, during
the last few years, that the "world is going to hell in a
handbasket": you put this very well, a distillation of vinegar and

the "answer", in my own opinion, lies in what you say, above, in....
">> And it all seems to line up with one of those weird
> phases when everyone in your own life seems to be
> getting hit by something tragic or sad or somehow
> ridiculously painful -- a sister with a neck trauma, a
> best friend going through major depression, a parent
> struck by illness, certainly almost everyone on the
> progressive Left feeling sucker-punched and morally
> eviscerated -- friends and family and loved ones all
> seeming to suffer in ways you don't want to imagine
> and it's all against a backdrop of more war dead and
> more violence and the most bleak and Bush-ravaged era
> in recent American history and you say to yourself,
> what the hell is going on?"

1...I see life on earth as us all being in a Classroom, a "public
high school 101", on the earthplane.

2...There comes a time when for all of us, the Time of graduation
comes, the New Age is to dawn. This age does NOT have to mean "fire
and brimstone and 50 volcanoes going all off at once, as comets hit
the earth, killing us all; this "Rollover" may merely mean that the
whole collective reality systems change greatly!
the Mayan/Aztec/toltec Indians calendar date of 2011/12, is a symbol
of this Event.

So if life is a series of Learning lessons, just what lesson would a
100 foot tidal wave have for you or I? "death in 10 seconds", is not
a learning lesson!!

But what if the *Real* upheavals of the age-rollover would have to
do with "soft" stuff like psychology, life meanings, social
conventions, and all of that "stuff" of you unexpressed life, that
lies in those 500 boxes in your personal Attic of your

I might suspect that the "board of Directors", the curriculum setter
crew, the Archangels, of the Human race's High School, of the
earthplane, might have something else in mind for us all, rather than
"instant destroyed followed by years of physical survival mode"!
why...."Grubbing around in the desert for starvation food", is
something that you and I have done over and over, during our past
lives; what NEW lessons could be gotten from "second grade material",
that we all have done over and over, from the vantage point of out
eternal souls?!
why not have New Lessons, lessons that are next to the 12th grade
level of the near-graduation Time: Inner psychological/life
meaning/spiritual crises lessons!

So spirit places all of out "candles" in the microwave, and not only
"both ends" now burning, this "microwave" is on "maximum power" and
nuking this candle into vapor!
translation: Spirit has goosed the physical plane, somehow, to
Stimulate us all so that each of us lives ten years per year, and
many of us live ten years per MONTH!
let it all hang out, open up those 500 boxes and expose every weakness
of character and maximize every stength and talent. No hiding one's
talents or evils, in a "Midwestern small town life, living married
for 60 years and working at the same factory for 50+ years, anymore!
One cannot repress and deny anymore....
One cannot turn away from ones own self quietly, and lock the door!

Spirit Pounds at this door, and it is time to grow in soul and
spirit, so that indeed there are ten things going on at once and
many many people have found that 90% of their early lives was a LIE, a
lie to others and a lie to themselves! Time for Truth, time to open
up all that buried talents that you did not know that you had!

> And it all seems to line up with one of those weird
> phases when everyone in your own life seems to be
> getting hit by something tragic or sad or somehow
> ridiculously painful -- a sister with a neck trauma, a
> best friend going through major depression, a parent
> struck by illness, certainly almost everyone on the
> progressive Left feeling sucker-punched and morally
> eviscerated -- friends and family and loved ones all
> seeming to suffer in ways you don't want to imagine
> and it's all against a backdrop of more war dead and
> more violence and the most bleak and Bush-ravaged era
> in recent American history and you say to yourself,
> what the hell is going on?

This paragraph, above, is the sound of a candle vaporizing in the
microwave as the Stimulating energy maximizes our individual and
collective lives!
and NATURALLY everything looks "negative" as there now is that
increased consciousness to see into the once Dim Room! More light!
more awareness!
This means that negativities that were once seen as "normal" are now
seen as "atrocities"!

[tornado incidence "increases", as the reportage gets better: now
there are more tornadoes reported than ever, whereas 50 years ago,
most storms were never reported!]
[those awful photos of Tortured Iraq prisoners? 100 years ago,
there was 1000 times more torture, and everyone did it, every
country, and Justified too!]

In Tallahassee 1950, plus or minus, Blacks were not allowed on
shopping downtown main street unless they had a pass from their
employer, a Reason to be there. Certainly, in any event, off the
street by darkfall! This in every southern town!

The stress will probably increase yet more, from this "energy" of
learning, up to 2011/12!

"ACCELERATED LEARNING"...Is the Name of what I call this, sports fans!
the whole earthplane is under the guns of accelerated learning, as
the high school comes to an end: gotta "Cram course in review"
the last week of school before Finals, get every single bit of
lifework completed!

thus...All of this "negativity" seen, by writers and commentators, is
perhaps just the Revealed Dirt that has been revealed by the
overturning of the stones and rocks, where those worms and rot have
been hiding all of this time, for thousands of years, now the Light
hits these squirming worms, the light of increased awareness: oh see
them worms writhe!
"let it all hang out"...My motto for these Times!

"my life after near death experiences"
"deep in the paper"

thank you.

Thursday, March 24, 2005


what is the truth?

I ponder this as I begin to place articles upon my "news" new weblog
"deep in the paper".

"Near the back of the newspaper are articles that often tell the REAL news!
The Good Stuff is often not on page 1. Or even on page 2!
Often it is found on page 20, or on a Mural. Or in a random book left on a library table. Even in a "top 40 songhit"! Perhaps in a religious Tract: but not in its *overt* message! Even in your dreams!"

what is the truth?!

here is an example.
One day I was walking along park Avenue, here in Tallahassee, and at the old 200 year old southern mansion, built by Founding townspeople, I stopped to talk to a carpenter who was working to restore some of the fretwork on the outside of this house.
He was a MASTER CARPENTER, I could tell, not only by how he talked, but by the very nature of his job: restoring old houses. He told me of how particular he was, how though he was, in getting every single tiny wood detail just right. He also told of how he had to more or less work alone as he could not find decent help. He told how lazy most hired hands were, how "not caring" they were.
A week or so later, I met one young man who was a young construction worker and he told about how he tried to work, once, for this man! "tried" as he soon found that this master carpenter was a "slave driver", very picky and just
rode the horses with spurs dug deep"!

who was telling the truth?
which reality is the right one?
to me, BOTH are right!
Aha! The "gotcha" is that each person describes his position as being the only True position. To listen to just one person is to hear what sounds like "truth", there is no way to tell unless you hear the "other side" to sense that there might be a different slant to reality!

another example:
a reporter stops at a house fire and he has only time to interview one witness. The house on one side is owned by a black. The house on the other side is owned by a India Indian. The house across the street is owned by a German man.
He chooses. He is BIASED! Each person that he talks to, will give a slight different slant to the fire happenings! No matter who he chooses, the reporter will only get a slanted view, and this view will be the one that you will read about, form your opinion about!! There is nothing that this reporter can do, to alter this inescapable fact of bias.

yet another example.
the AP wire feed gave an article about the percentage of racial proportions
of the Army in Iraq during the first 1991 war. This article was an interesting read, in the nyTimes, describing how the blacks had a far higher percentage of
people in the army, compared to whites and other races.
later I read, in another paper, how a columnist wrote about this Feed article, but he placed a very severe criticism on the Army as he saw this higher proportion of blacks, to be a CERTAIN proof that the army is racist!
[the times article had no trace of this]
[I eventually showed a doctor's candidate grad student both papers, sitting side by side, in the library. Tic made her day, blew off her hat, so to speak: here was the same information but written up in utterly different ways!!]

moral: every good thing has a bit of evil in it, and every hell world has a bit of heaven in it! Tic the nature of reality! Thus each and every 'bad thing" has some goodness within it. But oh so SO easy just to take one side!

I can write of carpenters and hired hands, but if one takes a "loaded issue" like of the Schivao tube feeding case, the objectivity goes by the board! Is the husband good? Or bad?
should she be left alive? Or allowed to die? "killed"...Someone might say!

The Schiavo case!

---there is something about her that I do not think that the Christian supporters of having her live, have considered!

Suppose she lives, the tube is reinserted.

One year from now, suddenly she wakes up!
After the preliminary surprise, of her awakening, she produces an even GREATER

---She ten tells everyone that she remembers each and every moment of those years
that she spent in heaven! 5 years? 10 years? Been awhile, and she can remember every single scene. She not only can recall every conversation with her own long dead relatives, she can recall

her long long Talks with


A long LONG Near death Experience!

imagine the testimony!! If she then writes a book, maybe ten books, just imagine what testimony she could be giving about how life is eternal, and even more importantly, the reality, perhaps, of the Presence of Jesus in the heavens and
thusly His Presence *as* a being, for all of us here on earth, though his Inspirations.

Oh the Christians know that already, but what if a living person were to live in heaven for years and then come back with a Report from the front!!


Wednesday, March 23, 2005

L/L Research Transcripts

[there are channeled entities telling, through a medium, about the earthchanges, and
there are channeled entities writing about earthchanges!!
This site
has the most, to my findings, the most Lucid and Rational explainations for UFO...earthchanges, and how we all are to deal with these changes of the 2000 year changes!]

[obviously this article is only for those who belive that channeling is a valid thing! there *might* be some readers, here, who follow spirit channelings/mediumship!]

the files on the above site are NOT "light reading", they will be some of the Densest stuff that you might ever have read, the transcripts from all of the tapes!!

January 2, 2005

Group question: The question today has to do with the catastrophe that occurred a week ago this morning in south Asia. Ra has mentioned that during the transition into the fourth density, the Earth would be releasing heat, the pent-up heat of the anger, war and disharmony that has been so prevalent on this planet for most of its recorded history, human history. We’re wondering if this earthquake and tsunami in south Asia is simply a part of that releasing of the heat? Is it a significant event that might signal a certain portion of this releasing of heat is completed? Could Q’uo give us an idea of what the real causes of such a catastrophe might be and what we might expect from our future in relation to further such catastrophes?

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we come to you this day. It is a great privilege to be called to your group once again and we thank you, each one of you, for reserving this time to be part of a circle of seeking. It is our privilege to reserve this time also and to share our thoughts with you on the question of the tsunami and earthquakes which you have experienced.

As always, we would ask for a favor of you as we speak with you today. We would ask you to guard well your discrimination and listen carefully to those things that we say, being sure to discard any thoughts of ours that you do not particularly like. We do not share thoughts in order to challenge you or to be a stumbling block but only to offer what aid we can to your own good and worthy process. If you are able to exercise discrimination, then we shall be able to share our thoughts without being concerned that we might infringe upon your free will. This is an ongoing concern of ours and we appreciate your consideration in this regard.

The query that you offer this day is most understandable in its focus of concern. Many among your people have recently entered the inner planes through the gateway of death because of the actions of the earthquakes and the tsunami that followed them. When such a large number of souls moves through the gateway of larger life, as this instrument calls the gateway of death, at one time, it has a profound effect upon the energy of the entire global sphere. The planet itself is aware of the change upon its surface and the energy field of the Earth itself does indeed change somewhat when the energy fields of so many souls have transitioned at the same time. In its way, it is indeed a profound experience for those upon the planet. And, as several in your group have noted, it was hoped by many upon your plane of existence, and upon other, more metaphysical planes of existence having to do with your planet, that the tragedy, as it mounted force upon force, would take the attention of large groups of your social complexes and remold them from the patterns of hostility and aggression into patterns of compassion, kindness and concern. It is a measure of the bewilderment and bemusement of a supposedly and so-called free people that the effect of the tragedy has not been more dislocating and more upsetting to the general patterns of thought amongst your societal complex.

Nevertheless, from the political or social point of view, or as this instrument would say, from the top down, among your societal groupings, there is almost the reaction of a marionette or a puppet to the etiolated and thinned-out discussion of an abstracted tragedy. There is the expected and almost knee-jerk type reaction of sending emissaries to be sure that the right kind of gesture is made. But the heart of the culture of your peoples has not been awakened, enlivened or enabled with the zeal and the passion to help that might have been possible in a more fortunate world, [a more] fertile period, among your peoples.

Indeed, there seems to have been, from the top down, shall we say, that feeling of hopelessness or even helplessness that seemed to descend upon the entity you call America when it became clear that, for the second time in a row, the seemingly free election of your peoples was compromised. Consequently, we cannot say to you that the energy we are experiencing on a societal level from your people is particularly hopeful concerning the structure of the, shall we say, chakra system of your people. We would not speak for the entire globe. We are aware that we include in the number to whom we speak this day, one from the continent of Australia. We do not presume to express here our impression of the energy of the Australian continent. We are at this time expressing the energy of the North American continent and it is, from the standpoint of large political or social groupings, a lackluster energetic picture where the heart has not been able to open completely and embrace the tragedy or even to imagine fully of what the tragedy consists. It is as though your peoples have been stunned, repeatedly, by a blunt instrument which we could only call, in general, fear, until the responses of your peoples have become less sharp and less full of life than would be the hope of any member of such a society.

We have said to you repeatedly that there is a groundswell of unconditional love that is struggling to come through, not from the top down or from the societal level down, but from the grass-roots individual upwards. And it is this energy which we would encourage. You as individuals sitting as members of this circle have full sway and complete power over your own fundamental inner energies. Whatever the signals that each of you receives from the surrounding culture, it is still a matter of your own discrimination as to what you pick up and use and what you toss away and reject. And where you encounter that dimmed, blocked energy of the society, we encourage you to reject it. Where you are picking up from the society the narrowness of judgment and the pricklings of fear, we encourage you to reject that. Whatever signals you feel that you may be picking up from the society that speak to you of cynicism and of letting the suffering and the pain of others’ tragedies go, we encourage you to reject those energies completely and instead to say, “No, I do not choose to be a part of an uncaring society. I choose rather to lift myself away from the old and stale habits of a tired and weary people and to stand on new ground in a new world, a world that I, myself, envision, a world about which I, myself, can be compassionate and can come to honor and love.”

You have asked, concerning this particular disaster, whether it presages a series of such disasters or whether it completes the energy expenditure that is necessary in order to heal the Earth to a certain extent. And in this instance we may say it is a little of both. There are energies that this particular disaster is completing. However, this instance is one of what we may expect to be many such disturbances around this so-called ring of fire, and in each other ring of instability where your planetary skin needs to shift.[1]

We have discussed before this basic concept of the Earth needing to correct its magnetic energies. And slowly, very slowly, through storm after storm upon your planet, through hurricane and earthquake and fire, these energies are being shifted and in such a way as to retain the majority of life patterns on Earth in an intact and healthy form. This pattern of disaster followed by subsequent disaster and so forth will continue until the adjustments that are necessary to complete the labor of Earth in its delivery of fourth-density Earth is done. These difficulties may be expected to be ongoing for several of your years. We cannot be more specific because, as this history of your peoples unfolds, it unfolds as it does because of how each of you lives.

It is difficult to explain how each of you is important here but it is so that it matters how each one of you thinks, not simply how you act but how you think. Because it is thought by thought that the energies of the fourth-density Earth shall be able to take their rightful place. And it is your thoughts where fourth density either does or does not have a home. This instrument was saying to the one known as M last week that, even though the goals of L/L Research are humble, there must be something to them because of the tremendous resistance that each member of L/L Research was experiencing and indeed continues to experience at this time. And we feel that this is an accurate observation in that it is in very simple goals such as L/L Research’s stated goal of attempting to live by fourth-density values that things change, not just for those in this circle but for those upon your planetary sphere. We cannot erase tragedy or remove the dark colors of agony and suffering from the palette of experience that is available to humankind. We would not wish to. It is not that we wish for any to suffer but that it is as though life itself were a wound that must be healed by the living of that life. In the acting out and the completing of the patterns of an incarnation, there will almost certainly be fell and dire suffering for each entity somewhere between the cradle and the grave. For those who met their death in water with the tsunami, that suffering was brief and very harsh. For many others, the suffering simply continues: hungry people, homeless people, people who do not even have a city, people walking away from the destruction of their homes. And yet, as each of you sits in a snug and warm living room listening to these words, how can you connect? How can you respond? Let the scales fall from your eyes, let the muffling fall from your ears and you will hear the agony of Earth. You will see and feel the crushing blows of suffering. Let it overwhelm you for just a while. Let it take you up and drown you with the extremity so that you really know that death has walked your way and has made inroads in the family of humankind. Let the pain of that awareness recede just enough that you again remember that you are an individual and that you are not completely swamped by the family from which you spring. Retain enough of that sensation of being drowned in a tragedy to give you keen awareness of the real tragedy of person after person after person being removed so suddenly from the Earth plane.

And be aware that the one place that you can be where you are with each of these souls is in what this instrument would call the “house of prayer.” You cannot physically fly to those lands that were so washed by this terrible tsunami but you can be with each of those whose life was lost, cheering them on through the gate of death and into paradise. And you can be with those who remain and who are in need of help, sharing, in your prayerful thoughts, the energy of your consciousness as it mingles with theirs, for in the metaphysical realm, there is no distance, and all places are one.

Perhaps more than any other response, we would hope that each of you [might] create, out of your knowledge that this kind of transitory difficulty will continue among your peoples on a global basis, a daily time of remembrance for those who are suffering. For the suffering of your planet continues day by day. It is not limited to dire, sudden tragedy. There is ample tragedy, day by day, to touch your heart, to awaken you to the needs of a suffering people and to engage your passion for being part of a loving energy that stands without fear, ready to reach hand and voice in the cause of love.

At this point we would ask if there are any queries to follow up the main question?

Tuesday, March 22, 2005


The Terri Schiavo Case
Judge Greer parts ways with his church on pastor's advice
By Times Staff
St. Petersburg Times,St. Petersburg fla.
Published March 22, 2005


CLEARWATER - Pinellas-Pasco Circuit Judge George Greer left his church last week after the pastor wrote him a letter suggesting "it might be easier for all of us" if he leave.

Greer, whose orders on the Terri Schiavo case have brought him criticism, is a Southern Baptist who attended Calvary Baptist Church in Clearwater.


Greer responded with a letter severing his relationship with the church.

[the rest of the article is at the link]

I suspect as much! today, any Challenging leader must separate from any churches
that he/she attends, as anything that is done will offend the Church!

"two thousands years of churchology has not dimmed the glory of Jesus"...by ???

Probably if Jesus ever *did* return, the first hit upon Him will come from the established church, any of them!! the New Sanhedrins!
They would not even Recognize Him! or accept anything that he teaches.

Monday, March 21, 2005



--at this link is a real time map of the earth, centered over the "ring of fire", showing each and every earthquake, with colored rings showing "today's, yesterdays. and last 2 week's" quakes! Sioze of ring corresponds with the magnitude. there is a "mouse-over" too, more data and the richter scale as you hover the mouse over the ring!
there is a 6.1 in Northern Argentina right now, at 9 am estern on the 21st.

yes, a "weather map" for earthquakes, 24 hours a day!!

Friday, March 18, 2005

Saint John's Episcopal church, in Tallahassee, where I live...From someone's picture of an old post card. I go there often for a lunch, in their cafe!

very very interesting dream last night.
extree----eemly interesting, as it probably means my "life or death"!!

I went to visit an astral location, in last nights dream, march 18th. I have often gone there, I see, now, I have often gone to visit this place, a combination of "new York state old farmer's world", my father called it that when he visited me about two years after he died.
there are now "hippies' there, communes and new agers!!

Apparently there is "my house", a house that I am going to live in very very soon after I die.

Last night someone told me that NOW I am not to get this house, that someone else
is supposed to have it! This is the second such event where another "home", in heaven, one that I am supposed to live in, is given to someone else!!
Then, I was told a number!

the other day someone wrote to me an e-mail telling me his interpretation of a couple of years ago dream of mine where my deceased friend Sam came to me to tell me
this endless phrase
"2005DF...2005DF...2005DF" over and over maybe 20 times!

Death of Freestone in 2005?? [D]eath of [F]freestone

I wondered *more* than a bit over this, but was not too concerned as almost always such dreams, for ME, are symbolic of something else.

well this email person suggested that I look at the dream in terms of letter
number values. a=1 b=2 etc...etc....
for MY way of other such numbers, interpetation this 2005DF
is such that the "2" remains.
thus 200546

Death of Freestone:2007!!

and the "56", in my last night's dream?!!

march 18th to my June 28th birthday is 102 days. 56 + 56 = 102!


If I interpret this aright, I *had* several homes and careers already set up for me
in heaven when I die, but there has been an "extension" of some time, perhaps to 2007
thus all of my places and heaven career job-slots, have been given to someone else, and they will not be there when I arrive!!


Thursday, March 17, 2005


I have a new weblog!



Near the back of the newspaper are articles that often tell the REAL news!

The Good Stuff is often not on page 1. Or even on page 2!

Often it is found on page 20, or on a Mural. Or in a random book left on a library table. Even in a "top 40 songhit"! Perhaps in a religious Tract: but not in its *overt* message! Even in your dreams!

I am, they tell me, a "psychic".

Yes deep in the paper are often articles that no one notices, but might very well tell the real news!

Inside of religious tracts, cat kennel mags, occult sites, Army enlistment procedure faqs, "page 14" of the "Lonesome Creek, Iowa Gazette"....Anywhere at all, even the backside of someone's obituary! News....News...That the liberal left and right, and even the occultists and the Conspiracy people do not notice: might be here on this weblog!!
strange stuff, heartening stuff, here, as only the Bad News seems to make it to page ONE! [if I Infringe on someone's Copywrite, on a post, please let me know!]

----yes, I will post interesting stuff here from time to time, please come visit and to read!!



Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Cayuga lake
--a good symbol for trying to see across the water of the news, seeing it all from a vantagepoint of Distance, instead of "right up close", right in it, colored by it!

USA TODAY: an older article
----State re-enters feeding-tube fight
By Laura Parker, USA TODAY
CLEARWATER, Fla. ? The state of Florida moved to intervene Wednesday for the second time in a bitter legal battle over removing the feeding tube from a brain-damaged woman and allowing her to die.

Terry Schiavo's parents, Mary and Bob Schindler listen during hearing Wednesday.
By Tim Boyles, Getty Images

Meanwhile, a judge extended until Friday an emergency stay to keep the feeding tube in place while he decides whether Terri Schiavo should undergo new medical tests and whether to replace her husband as her guardian.


Here I sit, in Tallahassee, FL, reading yet again, again, again, about this bitter fight, the husband basically against her mother, he wants to let her die and mother says no.

no Living will.

to me, my take on this is very very simple and no one seems to Understand how simple this is!
---no mother can ever ever EVER let go of her children's welfare! No mother can ever turn against her child. No mother can ever give up on her child.

the human race and "children" can never get beyond this, as this Principle is probably "hardwired" at the deepest level of "motherings"!

So now she is an "infinite baby", on the Tube, barely alive, and her poor husband is stuck, stuck as he is now fighting the Mother archetype itself! It may take all of his Life, and while some people lament that this legal fight is taking up too too much time and effort, why maybe *your* future might depend upon the eventual resolvement of this, in your own old age!

maybe the legal involvement and media "over-engagement", is really hardly *enough*!
maybe ten times more effort should be done: will YOU have a loved one, or even yourself, on Support, a vegetable, for years...Who will pay for this all?!

Monday, March 14, 2005

Interesting astral experience the other day!

In this dream I was standing at the edge of a hill, looking off in the distance. I could see far far off, in this lush land of some heavenworld. I could see houses and hills and many trees.
I then peered downwards towards the bottom of the hill, and there I saw something "out of this world"!

--as if I was peering over the land of yet a different world! There were
large buildings, a city really, set amongst the hills and trees.

I was struck, not by the land itself, but by how where I was standing seemed to be an intersection where two entire heavenworlds intersected! I could choose one or the other, perhaps, to walk into. But not both. both looked very very nice.

I then woke up.
the only "message" here, perhaps, is that there are SO many heavenrealms, so many worlds, each apparently separate from each other, like of radio stations along the dial.

there may be millions of these worlds!!

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

I had an interesting dream last night of sorts!

One of those ASTRAL travel experiences.
Very strange "story" to this dream! I apparently, as this dream began, was some sort of drafted soldier-to-be, in some rag-tag army that was going to invade western Russia! The whole dream was in "period" decor and buildings, as if I were tapping in to someone's personal event from 1700 or thereabouts!
I trained with the other 40+ troops, if we were good enough we all would be accepted. The quartermaster told us to go to the nearby village to buy heavy wool mittens and boots and other winter gear, as now all of us had passed.

Into this 1800 town I began to walk. All of a sudden a young, very pretty lady, came running up to me, and then she told me with very emotional great excitement that
she, or "they", had a substitute person who would take my place in the ranks and thus I would not go to the Front. This person would substitute himself for me, be
the person to take my place as a drafted soldier!

I then kissed her in gratitude, thankful that I did not now have to face Killing people, but as I kissed her, she faded away before my eyes, as if she were a spirit from a higher plane [probably]!

end of dream.

A week ago, I pondered my last year's dream warnings about how I was told that
I had but one year to get ready [to die], and yet another that said, given on may 9th
of 2004, "by this time next year you will be living in a place far far beyond anything that you can imagine now"!

in the site
---a site devoted to a channeled series of messages, the Guide says this,

"Due Dates
Now what I am going to tell you will be a bit difficult for you to imagine or believe. Every human has 3 due dates. In most cases the first 2 pass by with some sickness or minor accident (or maybe a major illness or accident), but the 3rd is somewhat final. I say ?somewhat? because just before that final date, a human can bargain for some more time from another human.

This is done absolutely unconsciously, as your subconscious mind bargains with your friend?s, relative?s, or even a stranger?s subconscious mind and takes over his/her life time.

Now how exactly does this happen? I will give you a TRUE example. This happened when we were alive in your world, but we had absolutely NO idea that it happened like this. It was only when we arrived here that we came to know.

It happened in our own family. My dearest Dad?s 3rd due date was nearing. Somehow, he felt that his time was nearing, and, at the same time, he was due to undergo surgery. He went to friends and relatives saying, ? this is the last time I will meet you all.? Well, he was admitted to the hospital a day before the operation, and that evening my Mom?s cousins Goola and Mani came to visit my Dad. They had a nice time chatting and laughing with my Mom and Dad, and they went back home.

The next day, during my Dad?s operation, we were all tense, and, as soon as Dad was brought out of the operating theatre, a phone call came through saying that Goola had died suddenly. Well, we never thought of this at that time, but now that we are in the Spirit World we know what happened.

Goola was blind (almost), and she had nothing to live for, while our Dad had our family and our love to live for. He wanted to live ? she wanted to die. So both of their subconscious minds bargained and my Dad?s subconscious mind borrowed Goola?s life time.

It seems strange to you, I understand, but it is true.

Well, if you consciously try to, it will NEVER be done. So for God?s sake, DON?T break your head trying to borrow someone?s life time.

You will ask whether it can happen to anyone and everyone. Well, it entirely depends on your and his/her subconscious mind, and whether there is a genuine need for you to live ? maybe to finish your work or protect your dear ones and/or to improve and reach a higher realm. Besides, the one who lends his/her life time also MUST have finished his/her work and have nothing more to live for, and, further, if God Almighty does not want that person to live more in your world. "


I had first read this about a month ago when I first saw this site. I then, knowing that I had already passed at least TWO such "one year to live" events, and was told that I had an extension, I gave this 2005 time such probabilities.
In fact I offered to Spirit in prayer, about a week ago, for such a "substitution"
if it pleases spirit and is best for all including myself!

maybe now the interpretation of this march 8th, today's, dream might be clear!!


Tuesday, March 08, 2005



a view of cayuga lake in the spring. maybe late march or even late april!
go look at the url to see photos of a 215 foot waterfall!

The falls are formed by a rock bed creek entering the lake and surrounded by a glen with walls climbing to 400 feet (120 meters). The cataract has a drop of 215 feet (66 meters), one of the highest east of the Rocky Mountains slightly higher even (25 ft., 8 m) than Niagara (American side), but they cannot be compared because it has much smaller volume. Taughannock is interesting year round - the falls and gorge create a natural amphitheater with dense spray rising from the bottom often shrouding the lower part of the cataract in mist. The name "Taughannock" originates either from that of the Delaware Indian chief Taughannock or as the Delaware word taghkanic ("great fall in the woods").

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Hi all.....

I posted this post in the forums of
Everyone may be psychic to some degree and we occasionally have a dream or premonition of future events. Prophecies is here to provide a public repository where anyone can submit predictions of the future to be shared, recorded and validated.
All predictions will be posted unedited and in their entirety. Anonymous posts are allowed by the system, but in most cases we will only publish predictions submitted by registered users. If you feel that must post anonymously, please use the Forum where any and all comments are welcome.

and the forums

hi all.....

I see all these terrible predictions, nearly one a day, here on the fourms, and elsewhere! i have had a bunch of these Visions myself!

I once wrote a post for my weblog, after I recieved one such depressing and fearfull vision of great ruin, i posted about my "take" on how i should
now continue to live, knowing that i may have little time left to enjoy the goodness of life.

here is some of it.

How can I enjoy the rest of my short life after having an
Earthchange Vision?

what is the use of loving physical
knowing that the endtimes/earthchanges
may ruin it?!

hello, everyone!!

someone asked me, yesterday, about my
latest end time vision.
She more or less says that " why go on
enjoy life, knowing that bad times are ahead,
and oblivion for us all"

Spirit once gave to me an answer for that

I was living in upstate new york at the time.
it was May, late may, and the springtime leaves were
at their best...gloriously may days, late in may, of
soft blue skies
and lush new leaves, everywhere.
the air smelled so sweet and all the birds were
chiripping overtime, in song.
But i had just had yet ANOTHER one of my end
time visions...that very morning!! There was strong
inference that very soon much of the earth's surface
could become ruined for life!
----and I now, by early afternoon, had walked
out into the countryside, from the 600 people town that
i was living in. I wanted to get out and pray and meditate
upon that dream...a dream that killed all hope, a dream
that says all will die. How could I feel "good" about
enjoying what could become ruined very soon? How could
i even enjoy this spring lovelyness that is now all about
me, knowing that
all of the plants could become dead from, say, volcanic
ash and clouds?!

so as i walked along this road, in the early springtime
glory....at the warmest time of
day...i asked this same question, in prayer, to Spirit,
this lady asks
me....."why even go on living"?!!

---and Spirit gave me an answer! probably a guide whispered
it to me, as I heard the
Inner Voice Speak!
it said, more or less........
Yes, you had yet another dream of
everything dying in the endtimes, Freestone.
Dust and brown and dead wood and dead cities, everywhere.
oh how depressing!
but look before you, Freestone!
there you see spring in all its glory!
and---you know that in only a very few
months, winter
will come and Frost everything Dead!!
the winds will blow black clouds and the snow
WILL fall, covering everything in still deathlike
silence, at ten degrees above zero farenheit.
Winter WILL win, as it always does every fall,
in upstate new york.
But you enjoy the summer, Freestone, do you not---knowing

that this winter to come, in only five month, will win out
over the life of summer's warmth??!! [frost can come
in september, in upstate ny!!].....
you know that all of it will die.
But you also know that there will be
another spring and summer, next year! There will
always be a summer nine months ahead, every fall of the year.
so enjoy this one...while it lasts...
You are supposed to, being this earth is a classroom to
use for to grow your Soul in!
High school art class may only last an hour a day, five
days a week: use it to learn Art in. Summer only lasts
four months every year, enjoy it!

and if the earth were to die?
why there will be yet another "earth" in
spirit for
you to enjoy, after you die...the heaven worlds
of spirit!
and this one will have an EVERLASTING summer....
so use the earthly "summer" to train you to
see the
Real Eternal Summer, in heaven, after you
die! and after all, even if the earth has no
endtimes that
the prophets warn of...YOU will have your
very own personal endtime, some day soon----!!

your death!

thus the REAL question, here, is..."how can i go on
knowing that i will die, someday, and all of my life's
work will be gone, and all my
life's future hopes and dreams will then be for not?!!"

we all, each of us, have our personal
endtimes, our
very personal rapture!! some people will end
time before the endtimes!!


a good answer!
so go out and enjoy your senior year in high
school, the art classes;
even knowing that very soon the Graduation
will occur
and you WILL move off to College, across the
Great River, never never, to come back to sit in
of High school #4444!!


there is a book, once, that i spied, in barnes and noble bookstore, the title was something like...."1000 things that you can do before you die"!

another book...."one year to live"...written by, i think, someone with an incurable cancer.

The Gist of all of what I write, above, is that the earthchanges are almost
a kind of warning that anyone and everyone has their own Personal
earthchanges and endtimes, called "OLD AGE", and "DEATH"!!

these predictions and prophecies, on this forum, are only Reminders of one's own mortality!

Thus: what can one do with the rest Of One's life? whether 2 years or 20 years, even when the "sailboat needs recaulking, in the drydock", there still is "time to sail"!

anther book that i saw...."what would you do if you had but one year to live"?!
----soon the gas prices will shoot higher, or maybe there will not be any gas! maybe martial law will keep you from traveling.
Read: "no more ability to visit your friends and relatives so that loving and amends can be made!" Thus, is there Someone that you NEED to see, to Forgive, to make bonds with, before this cannot physicly be done?!

----Soon the school of life may revert to "survivial mode", no more violin lessons or trips to hear that church organ playing, or Time to develop that talant!!


Grow your soul when there still is time for it! I experience all of the time, at my Retirement Home, how there are many people who work hard
for years until retirement, saving their "real life" *until* they retire!
And.....when they retire, they have a heart attack within a year or so, and if they have not died from it, they end up spending all of their Time on "body maintance", knowing their doctor[S] by their first name as they visit them 40 times a month, and take 20 pills a day!

Thus, in a real sense, i would "advise" all the readers here to Act Now as
if they had but two to three years to live!! Do it Now! do anything that
furthers Love, truth, goodness, finish up that "year" in 12th grade in
the "earth high school"! the end of the schoolyear is maybe soon, very soon, finish up you Incarnational Missions, and your personal soul's Ciriculum, for that "year".

I have the Feeling [a small intuitive prophecy] that we all still have two to three years left before the possibility that Things Will Go bad, then around 2006...2007..2008, things will unravel FAST!

as if the Lord is holding things still together so that people can finish up their life lessons.

do now, anything of spirit and soul, before it is too too late!!


Thursday, March 03, 2005

hi all!
an article caught my eye this morning, got me to thinking about something.....but first the article: i post all of it as there is a Tone that i want to communicate, here!

Mindless, cowardly rage thrives on anonymity

By Karen Heller

[via the tallahassee Democrat, Thu, Mar. 03, 2005

His name is Andy. Just Andy. He's upset and angry and so he calls on Sunday, when he suspects no one will answer, and lets it rip.

The column is dumb and meandering and so, by inference, is its author. Yet he starts to agree with the premise, while revealing more misogyny than is good for the workplace or romance, unless one favors masochists.

Then he hangs up. No number, no last name.

Alas, Andy is not alone, simply this week's sweetheart. He's average in such hostility, matched only by his cowardice.

Rudeness is epidemic in our culture, and anger lashes out at the slightest provocation. E-mail and voice mail, designed to ease life, have given rise to malice with little forethought.

Consequently, machines complicate matters, not technically but emotionally. Eruptions arrive without warning from strangers, like the hand rising from below in Carrie. There's rage in the machines.

Historically, anonymity served as a gentle cloak to mask affection. Consider the misunderstood letters in "Twelfth Night" or "Cyrano" or Ernst Lubitsch's "The Shop Around the Corner."

E-mail and voice mail, though, behave like bullets from a masked assailant. There's a legion of folks nursing huge wrath with too much time on their hands, waiting to correct, judge or attack - or, if they're feeling particularly generous, all three. Such missives are rarely kind. These days, no one wants to do anything nice without credit.

What gives? Life is better for most Americans, yet we're furious. Not all attacks are surreptitious; some assaults are full-frontal, though the tendency is to strike at strangers. A woman flips the bird because she's restless to enter a store, ignorant that manners dictate the person exiting takes precedence.

Politics utilizes the polarizing language of war, each side sure the other has launched a first offensive, which renders conciliation impossible. And, as I've noted before, all those chest-thumping ribbons and flags are partially rooted in fury and scorn. There's no need to boast when you're feeling swell.

There's class warfare. We're mad at the rich, though obsessed with aping their affectations. Schadenfreude is in full flower. Meanwhile, there's contempt for the poor, whom some wish would simply disappear.

Indignation isn't confined to large issues; minuscule infractions set it off. We're impatient and angry, every slight perceived as a conspiracy. Each day brings fresh indignation. Hooked on speed, people harrumph about waiting in short lines. Drivers behave as though other vehicles are the enemy. Complaint is a national sport. People get mad over garbage. I mean, absolute nonsense. A reader once attacked me in the most venomous, personal way imaginable because I had the temerity to criticize - get this - a television show.

We live in a state of vexation, despite so many improvements in technology and efficiency. Our culture of dissonance rewards hostility as entertainment. Acrid disaffection is perpetuated on talk radio and cable news, where interrupted shouting is accepted as discourse. Sports boils down to grievances and thugs.

Television thrives on loutish behavior and dismissal, being booted off the island, the stage, out of the boardroom. It's humiliation as theater, snarkiness as creativity. The nastier the terminator, the brighter his astral burn.

We've become amateur pugilists because combative behavior is the accepted norm. Louts behave spontaneously out of anger, then let others deal with the consequences, mopping up the mess. We're all maids to their muck and hostility.

The only response is to take a yoga class or get a massage, because the truth is you often have to pay strangers to be nice to you these days.

There are fewer rewards for civility, and manners have completely evaporated. I'm telling you, e-mail and voice mail, aired attacks and flipped birds at strangers are easy, mindless, and cowardly. It's kindness that takes work.


Now i will post a part of an article, you can go read all of it.


The increasing amount of water vapor in the atmosphere brings about a greenhouse effect whereby heat is trapped in the atmosphere and prevented from escaping into space. The warming oceans and atmosphere causes changes in global weather patterns. Solar storm cycles have more to do with global warming than anything mankind has ever been able to do. Ice ages and warming periods in earth's past geological history reflect periods of decreased and increased solar storm activity. Global warming is a sign of increasing turbulence and upheavals within the interior of the planet. This is linked to increasing disturbances known to be occurring in the sun. But every so many thousands of years the Sun undergoes an especially turbulent Sunspot cycle of extended duration. During these periods of heightened solar storm activity, the earth becomes more electrically active and produces unusually high internal temperatures. It is no coincidence that we are experiencing global warming during the apex of the current solar maximum. NASA is now calling a double cycle because of the extended and unusual duration of Sunspot activity. This indicates the Sun is currently in one of it's cyclic periods of unusual heightened activity - The Resurgent Sun.

The ultimate outcome of all of this will be the redistribution of balanced weight differentials within the spinning globe. As internal temperatures continue to rise and pressure builds, enormous volumes of magma excited by this additional heat move within the earth with ever increasing turbulence and force. Earthquake and volcanic activity increase as pressure rises and the turbulent magma currents buffet tectonic plates floating above and vent to the surface where possible. The increasing movement of magma within the earth shifts internal mass and weight. Iron


The topic is only one of many that are findiable in Google and on this Forum too.
There is, for instance, and article somewheres that tells how the earth's magma is being stimulated, heated, and becoming more "fluid"! thus more plate movements and volcanics!
then there is yet another article that describes how some scientists are in "a near panic' over finding that the earth is being increasingly bathed in cosmic ray-type of radiation!
furthermore, the Sun is getting somewhat unstable.

you all Know The News....

I have now "built the barn", now i can give to you all my WEATHERVANE!
[storytellers have to build and build and bulid yet more, the background, before they can even begin to tell their story, 80% of storytelling is in the background: no one has the time today to tell or to listen.....]

I walked up to see my friend Sam, from my rural parents home, one afternoon, in the 70s. i was staying for months with my mother, helping her with her 100-cat cat kennel, after she broke her foot. my friend lived next door, he was a farmer, and he specialized in wheat.
i had come up to his barn late in the afternoon, well after supper; he had long finished putting his harvested grain into the barn's grain rooms, which filled all of the upper story of this huge huge new york state old barn. I met him in his workroom, which was directly under all of the grain.
as i entered and sat in a chair near him, i noted right away that sam was very very "agitated" physicly, as if he had "attention deficet syndrome"! [he never ever is this way, normally!] In fact sam was nearly "psycho" in fidget, in "off the wall" acting and commentings!
Then as i sat there with him for a few minutes, i too, began to feel as if anything that i thought or felt, would "unport" or "run away" into a kind of over acting out, over reactingness, as if i would get "angry" normally, in a felt reaction to something, to about "10" on the scale: now here, i would feel that i would get angry about on a scale of "50", for the

very same "somthing" that would have, out side of the barn, only had me give out a "10", before.

All of a sudden sam pointed up to the huge barn beam that was directly over his head, the main beam of this barn that was now supporting umpteen tons of wheat, tons and tons of wheat that he had just unloaded all afternoon long, and thus he was now "relaxing" in his workroom, after that last wagon was unloaded.
this beam, to him, and to me too, was seen as looking "psychedelic"!!
I could actually see this beam looking "fuzzy" as if i could see all of the molecules undergoing great stress due to the Load of wheat above it!!
the whole beam was rippling and sparkling as if the surface was really a "fluid"! only that beam, and nothing else, appeared this way!

Both of us then realized why we two were now "psychotic"! our brains were being sleeted, being soaked in, by the given-off radiation, given off by the beam, the wheat, the flooring, that was above our heads! that beam was under SO much stress that this stress was now visible to both of us! and all of this energy was going through our nervious systems.

we left the barn. the "antseyness' immediately went away. It took many days before this beam got "used to the load" so that the energy was calmed.

now people.
One can see my Point, even if i do not summerize much!
Here I am linking that article about our "low boiling point", collectively; to the earth's plates being under even greater stress, the fracture lines giving off more and more earthquakes, these days. In other words, the ever-increasing stress along the fault lines, is being radiated through all our brains, as the
earth, at this time, is becoming like that barn beam!!
Thus all of us are becoming ever ever the more "psychotic"! and probably will become ever the more so, in the days ahead, as the plates and poles get ever more under more geological stress! all of this off-given radiation is going though our nervious systems!

thusi give a PROPHECY, here, based solely on my example of this barn beam! a prophecy that infers that as the geological stress continues and increases, the danger of Rash Political actions [read: "war"] increases!
Riots and disorders too. and, yes, more "uncivilility" too! everyone will over-react to everything, as this radiation sleets through our brains and nervious system!
maybe a "farady cage" might help, a cage of metal fencing, surrounding the mediation chair!

anyway, i can well imagine that places like Los angeles have this "california weirdness" as a ongoing thing, even in "normal earth radiation", as LA sits right on that fault line; probably this is why they all are so 'crazy" out there in southern california!
NOW...it is and will be "southern california" for the whole world, and double and triple too!!


Wednesday, March 02, 2005

the other day I got two comments about a post that I made, about
Sathya Sai baba.
One person urged me to continue researching about him, the other person gave me a link to a site that was very very "anti-baba"!

that picture of Mt Fuji, that may or may not appear, in my other copies of this Post, reminds me of my years that I lived in Japan, lived within sight of this mountain each and every day that the weather permitted. I once climbed it!
As I lived 15 miles from train-Tokyo, but lived within an hour's train to a mountain park
where few people lived, I took advantage of both.

Once, on a hike up a remote valley, I found a cave with someone selling a self-guide tour, the cave was lighted. A deep cave damp and cold. Interesting though.

so here is Japan, here is a mountain that reaches to the Gods and the ideal of every person is to climb this mountain once in their lives. To climb to God!
but the cave exists too. The unconscious. That shadow that is within us.
for a few, it is merely "unawakened talents". For others....Well read the papers

THE VICTIMS: BTK killings suspect was Jekyll and Hyde, cops say

Churchgoing family man charged in 10 killings over 17 years
March 2, 2005


WICHITA, Kan. -- He was trusted as a Cub Scout leader, respected as a churchgoing family man and accepted as a regular guy with a secure marriage, a steady job and all the other trappings of middle-class success.

He was also, according to police, an insatiable murderer who tortured and killed strangers over 17 years, boasting about his crimes in taunting, gruesome letters and poems that he mailed to police and the news media.

Dennis Rader, a 59-year-old municipal worker suspected of being the BTK killer responsible for 10 slayings, is believed by authorities to have led a Jekyll-and-Hyde existence.


gurus tend to be mirrors.

"the shadow knows what lurks in the hearts of men"
---from that radio detective program in the 50s!!

I even wonder about all the "psychic warnings of earthchanges" that I read on the net!! Our own collective fears of our own "coming apart" in nervous breakdowns
in our stress filled lives, perhaps?!! One could indeed project onto the environment
one's fear of being undone by trying to do too too much, in this multi-tasking age!
or...Even to link the earthquakes with our social earthquakes of Fast Social Changes over Time!
what you know now, will be useless in a year and ye could be laid off in a second with
no notice at all! "old fashioned" within a year!


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