Monday, October 02, 2017

the vegas shooting.

---the vegas shooting!
some thoughts.
we have been breeding these people for years. then as we all have more freedom to do what we want, the handicapped have more access, the battered wife can now Leave, these people also have more freedom!
and breeding them for years. broken families, broken jobs, broken meanings for living; the shizhoprenic and psychotic have had little help.
i, myself, have known at least TWO men like this! they imploded with rage, rage against the government, against modern life, against all. i escaped with my life!!
there are so so many mountain valley dead end roads with where the dirt track end at a gate with a SEVERE no tresspassing sign! you hear the dogs barking.
and we will have more of these incidents. lone wolves nearly always win as they are undetectible.
so what can we all do?
some random ideas off of the top of my head.
---find some great collective Meaning to our lives. maybe a religion without guilt and fear inducing dogma. the usa has lost its purpose, i fear....
---ask why so many people use recreational drugs! what is missing in their lives, to make a drug high to be more meaningful then anything else?!
---we need to care more for the sick, the elderly, our children.
like: corporate nursing homes that value the $$$ over resident care! no wonder young people today want socialism!
ah...but the youth forget that it is not the political system that is at fault, it is the managers within it. does not matter if capitalism or communism, the inner circle of good old boys get it all.
we all should try to live the Boy Scout Oath, try to live like Jesus would live. Love Goodness Truth! each of us has spiritual value, proven by Jesus telling the woman of the well of Samara , the prostitute, that she is worthy to be Saved.
i read once that in the heaven that angels live in, the greatest happiness of *a* angel is to try to make all of the other angels around her to be happier than she is!
we shoulr all try to apply this here on earth!
we need to pay much more focus on the children and the elderly and to education. much much more. in fact as much of our industrial might either goes to other countries or is automated, SERVICE CAREERS i would suggest. Tallahassee memorial hospital says it will need 500 more new nurses in the next two years. this does not count the 8 to 10 new assisted living facilites being build now here in tallahassee! each will need from 10 to 40 nurses.
we need Real mental health facilites and live in places for those who cannot function well. if they have a Life, they might not go so "ballistic"!
prisions should be for reform....
i repeat: converting our way of life to socialism, or to some other ism, will not work. it is a manager problem instead. individual people make or break an "ism".
Something Must Be Done soon! or else we all might "vote" for a repressive society just so that we all can have a safe life!
i have rambled on long enough....freestone

Sunday, October 01, 2017

I heard a voice , in last night,s dreaming.


already as i sit here, at 7 am just before breakfast, i can think of many ramifications of this saying.

God loves me, Christ loves me, whether I know this or not.  if i feel angry or depressed, i am sort of invalidating this Love.

on the secular level, i can see already many examples of this love.
I live in a senior home with many nurses and caregivers.  dailiy, i see the care and good attention that is given to the residents here, many who have severe alzeimers and dementia.  there are wonderful volunteers who come, like the wonderful lady who often comes to help with breakfast.  one can take this for granted, to complain constantly like a few seniors here do.  i see this every day, a nurse comforts an old lady in her wheelchair, kind words spoken to another, and also many "children" coming to see their parents, here.
there is so much to be thankful for.   good food, a nice bed to sleep in.  no earthquakes, storms, floods.

I understand that there are angels all around us, unseen, not noticed.  they shower love and attention too, upon us.
the angels love, in return, happy people.
  like even in the small things, like Mrs Jones had a hard day at the office and after work she comes to the cafe.  today they have her very favorite desert.  earlier in the day, an angle inspires a server to "mistake", to accidently push a desert behind some other food, at the rear of the cooler.  when she comes in the server tells her that they ran out an hour ago but that "i will go look".  sure enough he sees the hidden pie.
"you are in luck, there was a hidden piece behind the cakes".
 not luck.

then also one has to love oneself too.  to know that one is Loved.  to accept what oneself is.   even if you are now in a wheelchair and can barely feed yourself and were once a high level military man, used to giving orders, now you can only accept orders from everyone around you!

so this phrase..."do not throw my love away", can be seen on many levels.  I can Understand why many people do not want to hear about God, they grew up, perhaps, under "religious abuse"!  or that they see only the corruption in the churches;  this saying does not have to apply only to God loving us each!

Friday, September 29, 2017

Thursday, September 21, 2017

you influnce everything around you!

ah...very good.
this here freestone, maybe from growing up out in the countryside a mile from a tiny town, a town that is called by the residents, "the twilight zone", the tv series by Rod Serling, a town where Rod Serling is buried in the town cemetery, he wrote his stores here in this town:   I, who majored in weather, meteorology, Know that the weather that we get is not the random weather that we get!
the weather overhead is influenced by the collective unconscious of the people below!
everything influences everything!
---walk into a cafĂ© or pub feeling either angry or happy, what happens inside of this place is related to your state of being!   from the people drawn to you to the size and condition of the slice of apple pie that you get for desert, is not random.
"chapel perilous" !!
---someone once told me about this, maybe an idea from Allister Crowley.
a normal unspiritual person, who has little astral, etheric, spirit plane presence, has much less Influence to the surround around that person.
but if this person has joined some Magik group or otherwise been Opened to Development, where occult powers are activated, NOW the influences to environment  are hugely increased!
thus one has to now really also develop self control and discipline and integrity.  ethics and morals.  other wise all of one,s crap from their unconscious will ALSO   loop out into the outer world and Activate and influence!
ah...if one was a temple Initiate in a previous lifetime incarnation, oh Dear!   they are Opened by default, and from childhood onwards they are like a bull in a china shop fed a handful of caffeine pills!
some go insane!
some deny their faith.
some become Illumined.


Wednesday, September 20, 2017

How rural poverty is changing: Your fate is increasingly tied to your town – The Washington Post

via How rural poverty is changing: Your fate is increasingly tied to your town – The Washington Post
the new Poverty zone, the rural areas with the small towns also. only those who cannot dream, do not leave! thus the poor, the elderly, the sick, remain behind. off to the largest metroplex that you can find.
the Post says…
.””That’s the story of the new rural poverty in America: If your hometown went south, you probably did with it, unless you managed to get out and had the wherewithal to not come back.
The poverty of Las Animas isn’t the poverty of Appalachia or the Mississippi Delta or an Indian reservation, entrenched and intergenerational, enforced by age-old hierarchies of race and class. It’s the kind of poverty that can affect anyone who finds themselves in a place when the native industries disappear, as they have in Southeast Colorado and other rural areas across America.
“It just led to other things,” Martinez says, of the lack of jobs growing up. “Anything just to get money, because there’s nothing here, there’s nothing here. Everyone is on some sort of income here, whether it’s welfare or Social Security, so it’s not like there’s people here who could pay someone to go do their yard.””
I, myself, i have seen these towns. empty storefronts. dying churches. 2000+ acre farms that look and act like factories, as they bought out other small farms as the little farmers leave. i lived in my hometown in the late 90s. a farmer sold his farm and his relative offered him a job in a warehouse in Philadelphia.
going or gone: the small town rural verities like , socials. boy scouts. dish to pass suppers, bingo, masonic lodges. and all of the traditions that made America what it is…..
i had a thought this morning at breakfast after telling someone about weedkiller in most of our foods, the thought was about what will replace all of our traditions? what will be the New ways of life for us all?
dark thoughts alert!
the vibrant urban dweller, at first the young people, then for us all older people as the years go by.
some adjectives: Bro. meterosexual. clubbing. transgen. rainbow people. vibrant urban. live your dreams. mobile phone texting as the heart of living.
the church will come last. jesus will not be a part of their lives, at all.
nearly all cities all over the world will have this very same culture. look at our youth, today: they set the trend for us all.
here is an example from my own 700 people small town.  in 1960, a girl in my class, a very strong believer  in fundamentalist way of life, went to college at Bob Jones University.  the most conservative fundamentalist college!
ah…but many years later I learned what happened to her.  she dropped out, went to another school, eventually got her doctors degree in psychiatry .  she opened an office in Manhattan to practice psychiatry .  she specialized with helping gay people and transgen people with their personal problems and identity acceptance.    she apparently had a lady live in partner too.
   at her obituary, recently, people praised her for her care and help.
I met one of her older relatives in front of her childhood home, the lady said that…”we do not know her anymore”!    I felt there were two meanings here, one…we do not understand her at all, and two..we do not WANT to know her anymore:  write her out of our lives!
—she lived her Dream.  only the largest cities will Do!  she left.
at the same year, a lady telling me about her bad divorce, she lived four miles out in the country, she says for three miles in any direction, a rural slum!  alcoholics, wife beaters, abusers, bad people.
    she left to finish college 1200 miles away.
I am glad that i am 76 years old!  i will not fit into this way of life!

Monday, September 18, 2017

the newspapers just keep walking away!

the newspapers keep walking away!
here at the Oaks, in the library, there is a table where there are three newspapers for us all to read. the Oaks subscribes.
I try to read at least one of them every day after supper.
I have been here now about three years, about a year ago, someone or someones took one of these papers long before the day was over, took it to their apartment or room. the librarian placed a sign on the table, "please do not remove these papers, they ar...e libary copies". to no avail. they once pasted *on* the papers a note saying the same thing. someone ripped off the note and took the paper and the crumpled note seemed to infer, "HA...this paper is MINE, i worked hard all of my life and now that i am retired, it is due for me! GOTTYA"!
they tell me that no one has taken papers for years.
I can see now why they take them!
---a few years ago the retirees hailed from the period of the great depression and the War. people took care more of each other and looked out for other people. church socials and cafeterias and boy scouts and mom stayed home to raise the kids.
the baby boomers begin in 1947. thus now the New Generation has begun to arrive here at the Oaks. the "me" generation! it is all about me. self actualization. the handicapped has better access, the battered wife can leave, the small towns empty as anyone who can Dream can Leave.
no more cafeterias, the churches are dying and the people who dream often end up being one of the top 5% as they made a good life with their dream$.
some of these people consider anything that they touch to be theirs. thus the loss of papers.
its getting worse now. rare is the day that all of the papers are there. yesterday, sunday, only two sections of the sunday Times was left. i expect that my paper reading days are nearly over!