Mass murder and mental illness: The Interplay of stigma, culture and disease - Yahoo! News
After a review by an academic committee, during which her formerly trusted professors said they saw no chance that she would ever succeed, N was dismissed from her program. She broke down:
Me: Everything I have ever been told was a lie. My one way out — of poverty, desperation, madness — was never more than an illusion. And then disbelief. And then, how will I ever explain this to anyone, to family, to old mentors? And then betrayal. No language this time, no thoughts; crying, crying for hours. Alcohol, unconsciousness, unbidden dreams. Even there: repeating their words, over and over and over again. Isolation so intense, there is no way I will ever bridge it. I am lost. Days go by, weeks.
I fixated on a single vision, me, sometimes hanging, sometimes with gun in hand and a pool of blood on the floor, outside [her former adviser's] office. Suicide, yes, obviously, but also something more: revenge.
a story so terrible that maybe now we all could think that the best way to help mental ill people is for all of us to quit our lives and devote ALL our time to helping these people, our whole gross national economy for this. Like: in a 30 kid classroom, all 29 kids spend all of their time helping that one kid get up to learning speed!