Wednesday, September 29, 2004



another picture of cayuga lake, maybe across the lake from where i once had a cottege, in the 70's. There was a view like this, so Calming so Nice!

things are NOT so nice, in the geological world, though! all those hurricanes.
now there is that 6.0 richter scale earthquake in calafornia. then there was that NY times article about mt saint Helens about to erupt again!

specter of "end times" arise!!

Monday, September 27, 2004



oh boy!

only some wind and rain here, but what can i say, i live in florida!

hey!
my suggestion for you all...

1...DO NOT VISIT FLORIDA UNTILL THE MIDDLE OF NEXT SUMMER!!!
even if your "place' is ok, you will be saturated with all the vibes of the resident's Pain and sufferings! all the plants and buildings will be chewed up.
unless you know that the place you are going to has had no damage, stay away!!

2....DO NOT RETIRE HERE!
this pattern of storms will go on for 24 years, i read: an excercise in
"homelessness' if you retire here, perhaps.
try Ashley, North dakota! the taxes on a $30,000 house is about $50 and that house is the same house you pay $100,000 somewhere else! rent a 4 bedroom farmhouse for $200 a month.
but a good day in the winter sees a high temp of 10 degrees and the town's population is where 80% of the people are 70+ years old, all the young people have left! but no hurricanes!

be thankfull for NAFTA and the world trade idea, as *that* will provide or OJ, your orange juice, for years...be thankfull that Brazil is there for you!!

Thursday, September 23, 2004


http://www.ulysses.ny.us/parks.html

---the Trumansburg, ny, city office's site, in the center of the finger lakes.




yes, I find the hurricane season to be *weird*!! here Ivan is to strike Texas, after going out to sea east of north carolina then going south and crossing florida as a weak mass of clouds! I read it took the weather people HOURS, in a debate, to decide wheather to re-name it or to keep it "Ivan"! the protocols said that it has to be named the samename as it was before, if it got to become a storm again. so lo and behold, it is now a tropical storm....Ivan Again!!

those in the "omen department" probably are chewing their nails now as this track would portrent to them a very very strange Time of history!!

Monday, September 20, 2004

interesting dream last night!!

I was shown a map of the usa. there was someone talking to me too, about the map, as it was shown to me. The map looked very very strange. it was a "political map"
of the territories and states of the us. I could hardly read the format of the western characters on the map. The jist of what i saw was that this map is from a
ALTERNATE HISTORY
or Probably reality!
only the east has been settled and only a small area across the south over to the southwest, has yet to be settled, in what appears to be "currant time"!! I read "1949" on one state. I did not see my city of tallahassee to be even there. there were "indian wars" on the frontier, about just west of the missisisippi river!

then i saw faces of the americans. they looked a bit like "Italians"! all of them.
then i went "into" the map to go to see my hometown in upstate new york. everything was different, the roads, the people. I saw a 1925-type of airplane and farm equipment form about 1930, even though this map is suppossed to be "today"...2005.
I saw a machine called a "Roman mill"!

then i Realized.....
the Roman empire was still ongoing and this is where the Frontier of it was...all the faces i saw were of 2005 AD romans living in the new world!
there were no blacks: no yankee slave traders and no Arabian slave traders!
I saw no power poles or lines.

????
why did i be shown this?
is it a "real" probably reality?
how many MORE are there?
is this "real"?
what was the major Intersection-point, that branches this reality?!
what was the role of Jesus, in this Roman world?

questions questions questions, i have about 548 more to ask!

point is...did a spirit CREATE this for me, this vision, or is this reality REAL, on some level of time and history? if real, could i visit it after i die?
if so, how many MORE places are there that i could visit?
---no one settles the new world: Indians have a real Life!
---Hitler conquors the us: Naziism rules the world.
---the South won the civil war.
---China settles the west coast, in 1500 AD, now the Continent is a chinese place.
---German is the national language. [english, i read, won out over german by only a couple of votes, for to be the national language, in 1776!!]
---Franch or Spain get here first!
---Jesus did not exist, the whole of civilization, after about "20 AD" follows from that. [perhaps *this* is what my dream was about!]

questions...questions.....

Saturday, September 18, 2004


http://freepages.genealogy.rootsweb.com/~ohio/seneca/bare_cowdrey/kk/kris1399.jpg
a cemetery in Seneca county, NY, near my Hometown

"dead end"!
oh how "appropriate, for a cemetery photo: did the takers of this photo Even Know?!


anyway.
another one of "those dreams" last night!



the dream begins....
I am sitting in my very old, near rundown, truck, my favorite old Toyota truck. I am just getting ready to set out for yet another Journey to the Midwest, to where all the roads are in straight lines, as these roads were set out in the "land grant manner". Each of these trips involve stopping to walk through little small towns and to partake of the lives of the people there.
[Midwest = Ohio = "I" = my life! In my hometown area of Seneca county, ALL the roads are also laid out in straight lines, land grant too, like in the photo above.
Thus, any dreams that I have about going to take a trip to the Midwest, especially if the dream is about "going" to take a trip "soon", or "tomorrow", or "next", this infers
..."The immediate next thing that I will do, in my life."

I started up the truck, my luggage in the back, all ready to begin to start this trip. I am already On one of these Seneca county roads, I recognize the road, a road just outside of Interlaken, a road that I walked upon often in 1997/1998, the year that I was 'supposed" to have died in, the fall of 1998, when the Angels told me that "freestone, your life energy has run out"!
Instead of the motor starting, I heard a terrible "clunk" sound! I got out of the truck and opened the hood, to see....
That the engine had come apart!! It lay in pieces, never ever ever to run again!
so come apart that no mechanic would ever be able to fix it!
no more trips ever ever again, in *that* truck!!

then the dream
CHANGED, changed to "chapter two"!
here I sat In a house that I often dream of, a house that I live in, out in the countryside, in the "Ohioian" Midwest!
it represents, in these dreams, "my house, my life"!
As I am sitting in it, I get, somehow, a message that my maternal grandparents
want their "stuff" back! They were avid antique collectors, for their whole lives and they specialized in old bottles and glassware from the 1800s and early 1900s.
So, in this dream, I just knew that my grandfather had given to me, to use, in this house, a lot of his old glassware, and now it is to go back to him, to be taken out of my life. I then saw images of old bottles being removed from my "soul", my house.
[the "soul-bequeathments" from my Grandparents, that were to be used to help my soul, in this life that I have lived, were now to Go back to my Grandparents, and to be now removed from my soul! Ominous: as *if* the Angels who "helped" my life, for the 63 years that I have lived, now it is Time for them to leave, their Works of "Supports" are now over and not anymore needed"!

there is no interpretation needed, in this dream!

Friday, September 17, 2004


Bhagavan Baba in Prashanti Nilayam on 14th August, 2004

from the
"saibabanews"
...."egroups"/yahoogroups newgroups

this photo apppears to be
"Pilgrimage to Parthi and Divine Interview with Sarva Dharma Service Center Members, on August 7, 2004 "
...he is 78 years old, as of nov 26, 1926!!



WHEW!

tallahassee, and myself, are still here. i did not have to take the bus to play my Escape card! I told my aunt that i would make this trip my vacation, if i came: i will have to wait till the season is over, december 1st, before i decide "just' to take a trip there without having it a "hurricane escape"!
why wait *that* long??
wellllll.....the worst hurricane, 85 mph winds, occured around the middle or the end of November of 1984!! closed tallahassee down for weeks! end of november!!

I am getting Tired of seeing, on tv, a huge swirl of clouds, with a hole in the middle of it!!

Pensecola looks like bombed Iraq.
I-10 closed. boats in suburbs, that were once in oceans!

well on to other things, now that the sun is shining.

Now maybe to read about sai baba.....

Monday, September 13, 2004

it is now early monday morning, here, in tallahassee. I sit at the University library computer Contemplating my Fate! the Ivan seems to be in no hurry to run up to hit the city, it might drift into mexico. however i can now see why the weather people want to run it up to the florida panhandle, there is an upper level pressure trough
in Alabama: historically hurricanes just love to run up these!

the last two hurricanes, Bonnie *and* Francis went direct over the city, though very
weak!
i still wonder why there seems to be a "hit contract made out for Tallahassee"?!
as if some "mafia" wants to see the city ruined! only Hurricane's death by weakness saved the city, so far. bonnie was 30 mph and missed by 30 miles and francis went about ten miles to the east at 40 mph.
I would NOT like to see what a 150 mph wind would do to a city that never EVER
had winds over 85 mph! if Ivan ran up into the coast at a certain rare angle at full strength, the city could see gusts to 160+!

I will not know if i should take the bus for a day or two: i would end up leaving with the clothes on my back to visit my aunt in upstate new york and in two weeks i would see if i had a city to come back to! my georgia belle apts might be unlivible, even with new carpets and new paint, as these are death to my Lung condition!

I did NOT like what i saw on my computer monitor this am!! I got up early to check
some program and when i turned on the monitor, the screen was black! no picture!
the last time this happened was on the *DAY* of september 11 of 2001!! the surge protector went belly up. this morning, it appears the surge protector gave up the ghost too. but GOLLY this is not a good sign, right at the critical
point of maybe leaving the city....seeing that the city could end up looking like those Towers! if NOT an omen, this just further makes for stress as i have seem some amazing sychnchronisms in my life, over the years, and most of them that were "predictive" always came out true!
at the very very least, in the realm of 'symbolism-only", this dead screen means that there is a strange link between 9/11 and tallahassee at this hurricane-times, at least in my own personal life.
the first "9/11", was on november 9th of 1965 [11th month, 9th day]
was when i began my spiritual path, that year, and i was visiting new york city and was in a bookstore on that date when the first MAJOR northeast blackout occurred!
[NY city's "second" 9/11!]
then i was transfered, next month, to japan for two years..
thus for me, the 9/11 was the end of the 2000 millenium, and on 2001, the next age begins. thus *MY* symbol for today's screen blackout, could just mean that
my spirit path is at an end, especially what was symbolized in my life by my 44 years of living in tallahassee, on and off, for those years. thus if NO hurricane hits and i remain here, i will HAVE to act as if i had left! leave my "hanger-oners" who might or might not become friends some day...take more walks on quiet streets, act as IF
i had left and was spending my future months walking the "alonesome road", REFLECTING UPON MY LIFE. Act like whatever i had come here for, in spirit, in 1960, is now over.

---------------

so what am i "supposed" to do, from the vantagepoint of Spirit, when spirit has
no really yet given Notice? Just accept that i will spend the last months/years of my life owning nothing and perhaps never touching a computer again and spending all my "quality time" just hiking the rural roads of the Finger lakes?!
i might just DO that, if so...go back to when i was 19 or 22, live like it was still 1960 or 1963, as i was burned out of my school in 1963 and went back to mama
at 22. owning nothing.
There are personal bigger issues, here, then just leaving a city! as all those dreams infer that i might have months only to live, are these dreams infering death by Ivan? if i leave, will i over-write this?
or...
as I suspect that the "one year get ready" messege was at the end of november, maybe i "need" the just walk alone on a country road for awhile.
too too bad that i cannot do that HERE!! are not I "doing enough"?!
but then that dream where an Angel really chided me, like of a 8th grade teacher chiding a student who has Talant that he is behind in math and that he can do better than that!
"YOU, FREESTONE, ARE PAYING TOO MUCH ATTENTION TO FLORIDA. YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE SUMMERIZING AND REFLECTING UPON YOUR LIFE, AT THIS TIME"!

sigh....
some new agers feel that Angels are there to be "supportive"! ah NO, they also can be very STERN! especially if the person in their "charge" is living behind their "spiritual path cirriculum curve"!

so in a day or two i will know if i have to leave. it will probably be a "midnight abandonment"! so if i do not post for a week or two, i would not be dead, i would be out in the country near a town of 600 and perhaps not a computer to be found!

Sunday, September 12, 2004

hi all....

just as i am getting into my wonderfull morrowind computer game, the plywood boarded up Barnes and Nobles
reminds me that a catagory 5 hurricane is "mapped' to pass right overhead of Tallahassee!!
or maybe not.

but if it does with its 150 mph winds, gusts to 200 mph, and the city, while 30 miles from the coast, is on hills 200 feet high, i might have to get on a greyhound bus and Leave!
go to my aunt's in upstate new york. be a rufugee!
only the clothes on my back.

*if* the hurricane hits with full force, the city will be Gone.

In my hometown of 600 people, the Internet is not there. I may just cease all computing, then, perhaps "indulge" in a $30 playstation and a cheap tv: my disibility pension is so small.

yes, it could be that i might never go to a computer ever again, if my favorite city is trashed! i will re-learn to enjoy the peacefull countryside where the 1955 mindset is still alive and well...

thus if i "disappear" from the Board and from my weblogs, i probably did not DIE, just Gone On to something else!

after all, life is like a schoolclass where things are to be checked out of the storeroom, the paper, the books, the crayons, to be Used, then at the end of the day, they are Returned to the storeroom!
Thus everything, in life, is a "loaner", and must be returned someday: use it while you have it!

but if the storm misses, i will continue to weblog and to post in the Forums! but i will have to remember that every thing must someday End, me included, my body, that is....
freestone

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Well I am going to comment a bit more about that dream that I posted here yesterday, the dream where my "application" for a 7-year extension of life, is denied!

I have a friend, here in Tallahassee, who has five kids, an Alzeimers father living with him, his Nurse wife, and about four properties to manage and to rent.
He follows, in some manner, the "4th way"...Garejieff..Path. There is a belief, in that path, that one should really do the family path, before doing the spirit path, that there are some, in this Way, that feel that no one CAN have a spiritual path unless they do the Home/family first!
too...The Way of this path, infers that one should overthrow all habits and fixed thinkings and to try new things and to get out of habitual thinkings and habitual
ways of livings.

How Interesting, in light of my dream! Whenever he finds the rare time to have coffee with me at Barnes and nobles, often there is a "hint" from him that I should get out of my rut and do new things! Too, as I never ever had a family, or even married, there surely is an Issue there: I Am Not Worthy "of a Spirit path", in light of the Teachings that are behind my friend's Way!

I find, that if he NOW gives this advice to me, outright or subtly inferred, that I should get out of my ruts, I find

A DEEP IRONY

here!
his advice..."To get out of ruts and to try new things", in MY case, would be to get MORE into ruts and routines and sheltered ways of life that never change as this "gets me away from being out in Florida, from paying attention to Florida"!!
the direct opposite, seemingly, of his advice!! If I did take his 4th way advice
*as* he intends, I would stop reflecting upon my life and stop summarizing it, and then go out and do do do things in the outer world!!

"the Old man then ceases to prepare for death"!!

---this is why I would indeed be taking "4th way advice *by* becoming more routine and fixed in my habit patterns!!

Monks in monasteries have all that fixed routine and habit patterns *FOR* something! After all: they do not have all of that discipline just for disipline's sakes!
They do it so that they can meditate, reflect, and pray.

but oh how ironic! Taking "his advice" would be to do MORE of what he thinks is
of the ways that should be stopped!

maybe, in heaven, I will Ask of the Angels that he will have a Notice, himself, when he has one year to live: he then can get ready!
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Friday, September 10, 2004

Whew!

I had a *VERY* interesting dream last night.
this was after a day of a long sunny day walk, where I pondered some of my other dreams that I had since November of 2003.
---that lady in the train telling me..."You have ONE YEAR, get ready!"
---Another lady [angel] telling me, in dream, on about may 1st of this year..."By this time next year[2005] you will be living in a place that is now far FAR beyond anything that you, freestone, can currently imagine"!

Yet again I face a series of dreams, warnings from Angels, that I might not live long!

so yesterday I pondered why was it so, why could not I live another 5 to 10 years, I am 63 now, my father lived to he was 73, I could too! How about 6 to 7 more years, to about 2011, the time of the Mayan Indian Change Time?!

I prayed to Spirit about this, asking if this could be done.

last night, the dream.

I was in Africa and I was applying for to be a Ranger in the Kruger national park. The Examiner began to test and to interview me for this position. He told me that
the Hotel and the park was at 23 degrees latitude. I then told him that the climate is near the same as tallahassee's, at 30 degrees latitude.
He gave to me a few physical tests, one of which was trying to put a viewing scope down my throat to look at something.
I then went to the Placement interview and he tells me that I FAIL. He says, " your body is too too Quirky and unstable for being a Ranger in this park. "you cannot do it"!
I then walk back to my hotel. As I do so, I see the Examiner walk, with his black dog, up towards me on the road. His huge jet black shiny dog comes up to me in Eagerness to be petted, and I petted him. But the examiner walks by me, ignoring me!
---end of dream.

INTERPRETATION: This place is a mirror of Tallahassee, a mirror reflection of my prayer request, thus an answer to it, a reflected-back statement as to how Spirit feels about my "application" to RANGE [ranger] the earthplane for another
seven years [Tallahassee is 30 degrees, the mirror-city is 23 degrees, thus 7 degrees apart, I cannot live those 7 prayed for years!!]
my body is too too "sensitive" for to range the maybe-stress full earthplane, for another 7 years, with my Lung damage, my reactions to chemicals, noise, and the vibes of a country where things might well fall apart in soon!
Thus my body is not up to it!
thus, I pet the Dog, the very symbol of DEATH, the black huge dog, and my request is ignored, the Examiner walks by me not even looking at me, as I pet the Dog, who drools in dog-love as I pet!

that train dream, where that lady told me that I had one year...Was about November 25th. My father had HIS year of grace, from Nov 1st to Xmas day.

thus if I am still here about early Feb of 2005, Other Overwrites could be made...Especially after may 1st!

maybe I better listen to that OTHER dream....About a month ago, where yet another lady angel told me...In stern tones, like of my 8th grade teacher lecturing me
about my Failings in math!...
"you, freestone, are paying far FAR too much attention to Florida [the outer world!]
and you are not doing what you are supposed to be doing at this stage in you life, which is to reflect upon your life that you lived and to summarize it!"!!

--not very often am I Taken to Task, for being under my own spiritual curriculum-curve, on my life-Path of spirit! This dream might be the only one! And she was *very* criticizing in tone to me!

better pay attention!
wake up!
get out of my routines and habits, of being involved in the outer world, and Get To Work on meditating and summarizing my life! Thus make the outer world very "routine and structured", like in a MONASTERY, so to do this! My garjedian friend would
wince a bit, but his advice *would* be correct, "to get out of routines and wake up", if applied to someone who has one year!
[there was a man at the senior center, in 1987, who was at 73, a roofer and he worked on roofs all day long, until the very minute he died, of a heart attack, on a roof: ZERO PREP FOR DEATH, zero summarizing.

I gotta get off that roof!!!

Thursday, September 09, 2004

I am slowly getting a very disquieting feeling about the immediate future! Maybe it is because i live in Florida and the next hurricane everyone is concerned about.

however.....

I remember a story. A story of a man who was to turn 80 just before Christmas. He was in uncertain health; his relatives wondered if he were to soon die of old age.
Well....he made it through his birthday and then he made it through xmas. there were many reuinions and celebrations over his age. Then xmas.
About a month after the new year, his health quickly went downhill, and in a few weeks he died. On his deathbed, he told a few close relatives that he really REALLY wanted to see his 80th birthday out, and then Christmas too!
*then* and only THEN, could he now die, as all his life had succeded, he wanted to see his sons for the last time, and his 80th year too: a good "score line", xmas and 80, to die in!

the year 2000. or 2001.

we all made it! the new age has begun and we all earnestly awaited it with baited breath, watching the nuclear clock sometimes tick close to Armegeddion!
we made it!! we made it to the next age.

NOW we all can unwind and come apart!! now the end times can begin! we maaaaaade it!!

I read, in today's New York Times, about how some people think that someone should cut a deal with ben Laben over Checkna, in Russia! give to ben laben, and the alqueada, some concessions to stop the Attacks. maybe let Checkna be a free state.
oh boy!! if this occurs, we all will "power-dive" into Chaos and arnachy
as every provence in russia will have to right to be free. "terrorism Works, and the more barbaric the attacks are, the better it works"----*this* messege will
be the only real messege, for this age to come, if this is done!!

"the Unravelings will begin". that is my suspician. takes about three to seven years for the Collective Uncounscious to have it become aware that 2000 AD has occured, and now it Is The Time To Come Apart!

First this will occur politically and socially.
Occur with Mankind.
then as all of mankind comes apart, as Daniel Logan says in "reluctant prophet", his Guide says that "japan's collective old souls have psychicly-keneticly held together the Island of japan: the island is so unstable, geologically, that all of the volcanoes should have gone off long ago! but...now that japan's people have become so spiritually materialistic, this collective grace-force is wearing thin! if this continues, more volcanoes and earthquakes will strike japan! [written about 20 years ago!]"
thus....as the collective unravels, the "holding force" loosens, and there will be ever ever EVER the more natural disasters, from within the earth, on the earth, and from outer space!!

I, myself, am beginning to have that same feeling that i had, back in the early summer of 2001, culminating in the "9/11"!! a vague sense of Unease.

yes, one could move to Ahsley[sp], north dakota, where the ny times last year had an article about where the taxes on a $40,000 house is $50 per year and a four bedroom apt rents for $200 a month and many houses sell for $30,000, or LESS!!
70% of the people in this county seat are over 80 years old! no young people left anymore! on a good day, in January, the temperature might reach 10 above, farenhieght!
or....
move to the applilachian mountains only to find that 59,702 other people had the same idea, for the same valley, to move to!

or better yet: find your spiritual Center, Get Right with your Soul and with God!
Make peace with yourself and forgive your people who do not like you.

soon, many many people could be living in a refugee camp tent, or moving "cold" to a motel room in a strange city where the only person you know is the motel clerk!

Every single "atrocity" is another iron beam that is laid upon the "camel's back"
of our civilization, and of the civilization's Stewardship of the earth's
psychic Aura field! I feel that there is a direct link between ever increasing storms and our collective psychic health: soon the psysical earth will Respond with earthquakes and volcanoes. Astriods could Move in their Orbits, in Response!!
Lesson: everything is connected and interconnected, and mankind's collective "angst"
is a Prime Mover, of everything else! it must take untold Legions of Angels, just to hold it together even as it is!

so we made it. to the year 2000/2001 AD! now many of us can Go Home!
[notice, sports fans, the newspaper articles, whether nationally or local, where there might be an article like what i saw the other day...."the Minister's son, the person who was everyone's favorite high school teacher, dies in a freak car accident yesterday, he was 28"!]
Old Souls Going Home.
maybe going home so to help prepare heaven for the REST OF US, who could arrive en-masse, soon! anyway, i read about so many people who are everyone's favorite people, who die young in strange accidents. surely you each have read of some of these...
Omenious!!
Rapture in slow motion!

so
enjoy the very LAST of "indian summer"! get ready for Winter.....

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

I am slowly getting a very disquieting feeling about the immediate future! Maybe it is because i live in Florida and the next hurricane everyone is concerned about.

however.....

I remember a story. A story of a man who was to turn 80 just before Christmas. He was in uncertain health; his relatives wondered if he were to soon die of old age.
Well....he made it through his birthday and then he made it through xmas. there were many reuinions and celebrations over his age. Then xmas.
About a month after the new year, his health quickly went downhill, and in a few weeks he died. On his deathbed, he told a few close relatives that he really REALLY wanted to see his 80th birthday out, and then Christmas too!
*then* and only THEN, could he now die, as all his life had succeded, he wanted to see his sons for the last time, and his 80th year too: a good "score line", xmas and 80, to die in!

the year 2000. or 2001.

we all made it! the new age has begun and we all earnestly awaited it with baited breath, watching the nuclear clock sometimes tick close to Armegeddion!
we made it!! we made it to the next age.

NOW we all can unwind and come apart!! now the end times can begin! we maaaaaade it!!

I read, in today's New York Times, about how some people think that someone should cut a deal with ben Laben over Checkna, in Russia! give to ben laben, and the alqueada, some concessions to stop the Attacks. maybe let Checkna be a free state.
oh boy!! if this occurs, we all will "power-dive" into Chaos and arnachy
as every provence in russia will have to right to be free. "terrorism Works, and the more barbaric the attacks are, the better it works"----*this* messege will
be the only real messege, for this age to come, if this is done!!

"the Unravelings will begin". that is my suspician. takes about three to seven years for the Collective Uncounscious to have it become aware that 2000 AD has occured, and now it Is The Time To Come Apart!

First this will occur politically and socially.
Occur with Mankind.
then as all of mankind comes apart, as Daniel Logan says in "reluctant prophet", his Guide says that "japan's collective old souls have psychicly-keneticly held together the Island of japan: the island is so unstable, geologically, that all of the volcanoes should have gone off long ago! but...now that japan's people have become so spiritually materialistic, this collective grace-force is wearing thin! if this continues, more volcanoes and earthquakes will strike japan! [written about 20 years ago!]"
thus....as the collective unravels, the "holding force" loosens, and there will be ever ever EVER the more natural disasters, from within the earth, on the earth, and from outer space!!

I, myself, am beginning to have that same feeling that i had, back in the early summer of 2001, culminating in the "9/11"!! a vague sense of Unease.

yes, one could move to Ahsley[sp], north dakota, where the ny times last year had an article about where the taxes on a $40,000 house is $50 per year and a four bedroom apt rents for $200 a month and many houses sell for $30,000, or LESS!!
70% of the people in this county seat are over 80 years old! no young people left anymore! on a good day, in January, the temperature might reach 10 above, farenhieght!
or....
move to the applilachian mountains only to find that 59,702 other people had the same idea, for the same valley, to move to!

or better yet: find your spiritual Center, Get Right with your Soul and with God!
Make peace with yourself and forgive your people who do not like you.

soon, many many people could be living in a refugee camp tent, or moving "cold" to a motel room in a strange city where the only person you know is the motel clerk!

Every single "atrocity" is another iron beam that is laid upon the "camel's back"
of our civilization, and of the civilization's Stewardship of the earth's
psychic Aura field! I feel that there is a direct link between ever increasing storms and our collective psychic health: soon the psysical earth will Respond with earthquakes and volcanoes. Astriods could Move in their Orbits, in Response!!
Lesson: everything is connected and interconnected, and mankind's collective "angst"
is a Prime Mover, of everything else! it must take untold Legions of Angels, just to hold it together even as it is!

so we made it. to the year 2000/2001 AD! now many of us can Go Home!
[notice, sports fans, the newspaper articles, whether nationally or local, where there might be an article like what i saw the other day...."the Minister's son, the person who was everyone's favorite high school teacher, dies in a freak car accident yesterday, he was 28"!]
Old Souls Going Home.
maybe going home so to help prepare heaven for the REST OF US, who could arrive en-masse, soon! anyway, i read about so many people who are everyone's favorite people, who die young in strange accidents. surely you each have read of some of these...
Omenious!!
Rapture in slow motion!

so
enjoy the very LAST of "indian summer"! get ready for Winter.....
Francis.

yuuch! days and days of rain and Gloom and wind. at least not much damage.

I have gotten to DISLIKE all summer three-day holidays, over the years! especially labor day! tis always *not* a day for rest, usually the most stress filled day and weekend of the year! either unremitting rain, or some disaster.
maybe now i can post again soon.

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marina@sonic.net>, "CARD"


I am slowly getting a very disquieting feeling about the immediate future! Maybe it is because i live in Florida and the next hurricane everyone is concerned about.
however.....
I remember a story. A story of a man who was to turn 80 just before Christmas. He was in uncertain health; his relatives wondered if he were to soon die of old age.
Well....he made it through his birthday and then he made it through xmas. there were many reuinions and celebrations over his age. Then xmas.
About a month after the new year, his health quickly went downhill, and in a few weeks he died. On his deathbed, he told a few close relatives that he really REALLY wanted to see his 80th birthday out, and then Christmas too!
*then* and only THEN, could he now die, as all his life had succeded, he wanted to see his sons for the last time, and his 80th year too: a good "score line", xmas and 80, to die in!
the year 2000. or 2001.
we all made it! the new age has begun and we all earnestly awaited it with baited breath, watching the nuclear clock sometimes tick close to Armegeddion!
we made it!! we made it to the next age.
NOW we all can unwind and come apart!! now the end times can begin! we maaaaaade it!!
I read, in today's New York Times, about how some people think that someone should cut a deal with ben Laben over Checkna, in Russia! give to ben laben, and the alqueada, some concessions to stop the Attacks. maybe let Checkna be a free state.
oh boy!! if this occurs, we all will "power-dive" into Chaos and arnachy
as every provence in russia will have to right to be free. "terrorism Works, and the more barbaric the attacks are, the better it works"----*this* messege will
be the only real messege, for this age to come, if this is done!!
"the Unravelings will begin". that is my suspician. takes about three to seven years for the Collective Uncounscious to have it become aware that 2000 AD has occured, and now it Is The Time To Come Apart!
First this will occur politically and socially.
Occur with Mankind.
then as all of mankind comes apart, as Daniel Logan says in "reluctant prophet", his Guide says that "japan's collective old souls have psychicly-keneticly held together the Island of japan: the island is so unstable, geologically, that all of the volcanoes should have gone off long ago! but...now that japan's people have become so spiritually materialistic, this collective grace-force is wearing thin! if this continues, more volcanoes and earthquakes will strike japan! [written about 20 years ago!]"
thus....as the collective unravels, the "holding force" loosens, and there will be ever ever EVER the more natural disasters, from within the earth, on the earth, and from outer space!!
I, myself, am beginning to have that same feeling that i had, back in the early summer of 2001, culminating in the "9/11"!! a vague sense of Unease.
yes, one could move to Ahsley[sp], north dakota, where the ny times last year had an article about where the taxes on a $40,000 house is $50 per year and a four bedroom apt rents for $200 a month and many houses sell for $30,000, or LESS!!
70% of the people in this county seat are over 80 years old! no young people left anymore! on a good day, in January, the temperature might reach 10 above, farenhieght!
or....
move to the applilachian mountains only to find that 59,702 other people had the same idea, for the same valley, to move to!
or better yet: find your spiritual Center, Get Right with your Soul and with God!
Make peace with yourself and forgive your people who do not like you.
soon, many many people could be living in a refugee camp tent, or moving "cold" to a motel room in a strange city where the only person you know is the motel clerk!
Every single "atrocity" is another iron beam that is laid upon the "camel's back"
of our civilization, and of the civilization's Stewardship of the earth's
psychic Aura field! I feel that there is a direct link between ever increasing storms and our collective psychic health: soon the psysical earth will Respond with earthquakes and volcanoes. Astriods could Move in their Orbits, in Response!!
Lesson: everything is connected and interconnected, and mankind's collective "angst"
is a Prime Mover, of everything else! it must take untold Legions of Angels, just to hold it together even as it is!
so we made it. to the year 2000/2001 AD! now many of us can Go Home!
[notice, sports fans, the newspaper articles, whether nationally or local, where there might be an article like what i saw the other day...."the Minister's son, the person who was everyone's favorite high school teacher, dies in a freak car accident yesterday, he was 28"!]
Old Souls Going Home.
maybe going home so to help prepare heaven for the REST OF US, who could arrive en-masse, soon! anyway, i read about so many people who are everyone's favorite people, who die young in strange accidents. surely you each have read of some of these...
Omenious!!
Rapture in slow motion!
so
enjoy the very LAST of "indian summer"! get ready for Winter.....

Friday, September 03, 2004

There was an event at my Senior towers that reminded me of something!
Many many people, there, attend the church services there. too, there are lots of "sings" and bible study classes, the whole Center is managed by a church foundation.

Many of the residents are "saved", they have accepted Jesus as their Savior.

I was reminded of a "composite" person, yesterday: i have seen a hundred or more of this very same "person", over the years, and not only of an old person either!
In my hometown, i attended the church in the 90s, i saw the same.

what was this?
that many Christian people never ever seemed to be "working" to remove their "Sins", to lessen them, to replace negativity with happyness, love, and forgiveness!!
--- a "Saved" lady keeps negatively criticizing, in a negative state, nearly "everything", but she seems not to be working to eliminate this attitiude, over the months that i have known her.
---someone holding a grudge "forever", and then even saying that "God is on my side", and 'self-righious" about her position!
---a person really "hating" abortionists, but not aware that "hate is hate"!
---A minister, who tells his congregation that he is NOW going to rehab about his Drinking. months later the police take away his drivers license in a DWI!
He goes again to rehab. then he runs off to stay in a motel!
---a younger [40] man who cannot stop "obsessing" about his bad-divorce-wife!
All of these example-people are "Saved Christians", but they seem not ever to be changing these "my-percieved sins" into a better attitude.


the Gardejieffian/Fourth way people have a nice phrase..."working upon oneself".
why oh why are not these christians "working upon themselves"?!

It might seem that saved christians, self-admitting that they are sinners, that they would be trying to remove these sins from their souls! I guess that they must think that Jesus Does All the Work and that as He forgives their sins, all that they have to do is to ask Him for Forgiveness, and then keep on sinning!!
As if there is not even an awareness that one should stop this sinning!


When i was 1993 very VERY sick with Empyma, and was in the hospital for 20 days, i was introduced to the concept of the "HEALING TEAM"! this is where the staff of the hospital, from the doctors , to the lab techs to the janitors, are part of a team that is responsible for my healings.

I quickly realized that I, MYSELF, must also be part of this Team!!

--a nurse draws the blinds on the very first morning's sun into my window: i tell her not to ever draw them as that sun only comes in an hour a day, *if* it shines at all, in the 200 cloudy days a year that Upstate new york gives. I need that sun, for my mood as well as for healing rays.
--in spite of my DEMAND that "no flowers ever ever be brought", my aunt sends a huge huge bouquet of them: carnations. the nurse who brings them in has a runny nose, she apoligizes for the allergy, reacting to "something"! i told her right then and there, that i once sold carnations and that they are preserved with 50 CHEMICALS
and that this is why i do not want flowers in my small small private room [isolation ward!], and i told her that her allergy will go away when they are gone from my room! The allergy went away!
Yes, sports fans, I had to monitor my medicine, i had to special order certain types of very high protein foods from the cafeteria, to substitute for the meals that sometimes were "all carbs"!
I had to be part of the Healing Team too!! to also take charge of my own healings, as well as the Staff doing their part.

yes, Christians have Jesus always there. his angels too. Ones own spiirt guides also.
THE SPIRITUAL HEALING TEAM!

but I have to be part of that team too! I have to take responsibility too, to try to eliminate my sins and negativities. I have to grow in spirit, i have to do some
of the work of Salvation also. too too many times have I seen Christians who
do no spiritual work upon themselves: they will die *just* at the same state that they were saved in, year and years ago, nothing has really changed in their lives since they began to follow the Path of Spirit! [new agers too]!!

a baptist minister, in my childhood home, once preached a sermon about the "babies
in jesus"! he said that such a person is a person who became saved, and did nothing to grow his soul in Jesus, so that when he died, he arrives in heaven *as*
a baby, because that is the age of his soul!! there was no real spiritual growth
done!

ya gotta be a part of the Spiritual healing team! to become an Active Member of the
Team that is working for the growth of your soul, let YOU, as well as the Angels, the Saints, Jesus, Mother mary, the Guides....help in the growth of your Spiritual soul!

[i have to remember that i wrote this: gotta get the rocks out of my own eye, before too being harsh on those who have cinders in their eyes!]
test

Thursday, September 02, 2004



---that waterfall is taughannook falls. the highest straight drop falls east of the Mississippi river, in the usa.
Next to cayuga lake in upstate ny, 212 feet high. the overlook is nearly 100 feet higher than the falls!


yes Natural wonders from my childhood.

the Mozilla just wiped out my Post, below this line. I was going to rant about the Hurricane and how it is to live on a bowling lane. How everone who lives here is a gambler far far more than any casino player is, and when you Lose, you become a refugee, utterly DEPENDANT upon the us government, or others, for eeeeeverything!

I think that this is our Future, for the next ten years as the earth gets warmer
and global waming is getting ever ever out of hand.
I just read today that many florida rivers have it where the fish are toxic, filled with mercury, from the air...i see it now, soon fish will never be eaten ever ever again!

they say that this "double whammey" of TWO storms of catagory 4, is a "once in a lifetime" event....or even rarely, like once in 100 years or more!

just wait till the THIRD ONE STRIKES, the hurricane Season still has 60 days yet to go!

"once in a lifetime", from now on, probably really means..."every year", for natural disasters, from now on!

That waterfall, near my hometown! it was a sacred site for the Indians. as is the Finger lakes, where that falls is. the lake below the falls, Cayuga lake, might have 500 waterfalls around it. near my cottage that i owned, in the 70s, there were about 14 to 20 waterfalls per mile, that were from 20 to 150 feet high!
For many of us, these days, there are no more "sacred sites", even Naturally speaking! [ a feeling of Awe and naturallness and wholesomeness!]
many many kids today do not know even what a home-made cookie tastes like! many kids are now ORPHANS, even with two parents as they both work, the Proper place for a kid today is in front of that tv!
my close friend with 5 kids; they go each year to the mountains of north georgia, camping on a lake, this is the sort of thing that is rare today for kids! today they have the soccer/baseball little leagues, taking up their time for the summer, or even year-round-school!
I grew up having my summers at the family cottage near that waterfall, there was a 40 foot waterfall behind the cottage, and 20 more falls within two miles! a cottage 40 feet from the shore...ah, the memories!

today, all of this does NOTHING, so the parents think, to Advance the CEO-earning potential of the kid, after he graduates from College and begins his career on the way to top CEO manager-hood! [I read in the ny Times that in ny city, many of these obsessive parents begin to Arrange their son's entire future when he is TWO years old, to get him into Yale, harvard, cornel, or some other such school: every minute of his life planned out!

"sacred spots" Do Not Count, in today's thinkings. smacks too too much of what the Liberals want to remove from our culture: the idea that there are things out there that are Objectively BETTER, or "Moral" or more "ethical", than of something/anything else!! if there are no values to anything: each of something has EQUAL value to anything else, why does it really matter that one lives under dirty skies next to an interstate bypass with roaring traffic noises all day and night long?
I am old fashioned, i guess: i like my sacred spots. not only in experiencing them, but in remembering all of them that i have seen, for all of my lifetime of 63 years! "sacred spots" seen, like of a certain walk to a woods with a canopy of trees with no undergrowth...at age 15...in the woods behind my childhood home in Interlaken, ny; why this infers, this recalling of "sacred spots" in my lifetime, that there ARE life-experiences that are "better" than others, on a kind of "ethical" level! and that one can pick and choose from them, for one's future life left to live.
If a person has no idea that "there are sacred spots, of any kind", then this person might just accept what is given to them, by life, and not try to change things, as there are no ideas of a something better to reach out for!
[i.e...the kid who knows not the taste of a home-made cookie, could just buy the stuff of of the shelves in the supermarket, for life!
i.e...the battered-by-husband lady, batter too in childhood, might only accept yet more batterings, knowing no better!]
seek ye your sacred spots! whether of a Place, like that waterfall, or a way of life, like of "personal quiet time out" to meditate/refect, or even of a life-philosophy!