Monday, October 28, 2002

---a letter to a blind friend in upstate ny who has most people around him seem to give to him trouble!
recently his old old seeingeye dog has been so sickly looking that as he takes the dog on the bus for the 20 mile trip, daily, people have seen the seeing eye school-name, on the harness, and REPORTED to the school the dog's condition: recently someone from the school came by to remove the harness from the dog! my friend has often felt that the whole bus of people, would like him to never never get on!
half the town seems to "have it in for him"---a town full of "welfare cases", a town where it is couldy and cold for over half the year and there are no good jobs and Drinking to forget one's failed dreams, *is* the way of life!!
[edited]
--- xxx wrote:

>
> I have seen abusers of guide dogs. I have also
> watched this school drug those dogs to appease the
> owner, possibly thinking they are not at fault, just
> the dog.
>
> These people are very untrustworthy. The SPCA
> woman, xxxxx, has already lied about the Cats..................

freestone says.

hi Bxxxx,

your increasing anger toward all these people, reminds me of that man in Interlaken, a man who was about 80 to 85 years old. he was in good health, for his age, but he shook his fist at everyone, in anger. Someone told me that it was him against the world and everyone had it out for him.

whether true or not, xxxx, his circle of love grew smaller year by year, as there are ever the more bastards out there!

unfortunately, many of the caretakers and counselors of the homeless shelters and the handicapped, are taking the job so that they just know that there are people worse off than they are, thus the need people to look down on, in order to feel good about themselves!

thus being handicapped, xxxxx, just makes you a target for these people.

on my interlaken rural walks, i would get a cat-call
from some passing motorist, about once per two miles or so...!!
Unfortunately, the model of that lady who went to north carolina with her husband and then she came back to interlaken alone without him and was so so angry...is the model! she could not live her dream, she came back a failure! she was angry at me in the resturant for telling her that her ciggarette was making me sick: but i knew that her anger was not really at me, it was against life itself, her own life's failure!

so many of the creative and caring people have left upstate new york to move to greener pastures and thus Raleigh and other places gets them. they live in suburbia, read "need a car" and are city people.
so there are more than the average, xxxx, of bitter
people in Interlaken and upstate ny! they cannot leave, see, xxxx! so nowadays the creative and loving
people, like my nephew....they move to , BOSTON or nyc or atlanta, and have a creative life and leave the small town minds behind!....the "apples that drop next to the tree" live in the boonies where the alcoholic rate is very high, they could not leave!

you xxxx, are thus surrounded by many many "women of smarara"! souls who find it hard to love and to be loved. they also have no inner truths, or inner Knowledge of what is Real! they are litterally like "3rd grader-level kids, who are 6th grade age, and going to 6th grade"! everything in the currant ciriculum is utterly beyond their comprehension, thus they get very frustrated and want to take it out on someone, anyone!
Read: " the Sniper!!"

so... can you find a way to love them in the Spirit's name?! you have a concentration of bastards, around you, and they are suffering young souls who live in HELL while they are alive in the flesh!

yes, there may come a day that you cannot even get on the bus to go to ithaca at all without some shit being flung at you!

what i am saying xxxx, is to try not to take it personally! otherwise your anger and bitterness could grow and grow and then you will just be ONE OF THEM!
they are bitter: you are bitter. bitterness is bitterness, no matter what causes it, thus you would live in the same hellworld as they, as you are bitter
for "good reasons"...but so are they, just ask them and they will tell you for hours of "the bastards that did so-and-so to them"...just like you tell others about all of the bad things that people do to you!!
in their mindsets, seeing a weak slobbering dog on the bus, with the seeing eye schooltag, on the harness: they just reach for the phone to report as they do not want a "dirty dog" mess up their 20 mile bustrip!
*just* like you , xxxx, do not like how those messey neighboors next door made a mess of your life, stealing from you and making you sick with that caper about the chinney furnace damper, and the noise and the vibes!
you would want to report THEM the the authorities, would you not?!

everyone around you are trying to dance as best they can, trying to love as best they can...often gets twisted and corrupted as "living the spiritual life" has not ever been taught them in school or college, thus they learn from the school of hard knocks called "life"!

my feeble atempts at "advice", would be for you to try to make the people around you happier, after they leave you, than they were before they came to you!
by "happier", i mean more than just "happy"! i mean that they should have more of an optimism and a inner peace and a inner Knowingness of what is real and more the real.
So many of you townspeople around you are only "correct" in their reality-perceptions. often they cannot see a "greater Truth" that might transcend those "correct perceptions or even overthrow them!

again: an autistic kid is often a very angry kid. it is that he is frustrated as whatever he says to someone or tries to do with his body, cannot come out right!
thus..
many of the people around you are frustated by not being able to live in this modern age, and get angry!
many have only a 5th grade education and life needs grad school now!

---end of sermon....
i have sympathy...

freestone