Tuesday, December 11, 2001

Library is quiet today. I guess that i can still use it.

I am still self-troubled about the "homeless, from that article that i wrote yesterday"!
I have to face the fact that i Do Not Really Want To Be Around Them! but it is not a "political issue" or a "social issue"! it is due to the bad vibes! If their collective vibes were a color, they would be a mixture of pea-green, dark muddy red, and murky yellow!
Imagine a person who EXPECTS to step on a dog turd at *every* step: it has occured---WILL occur, with every step.
yes i hear it now, from the "peanut galley"........"why doesn't such a homeless person just accept Jesus into his heart"?!
yeah!

yeah indeed!

I can hear this homeless person now-----"Just another mother fucker, this Jesus, to tell me what to do"!
and....
"everyone tells me what to do.
---- the social worker says that i must take Thoribenzindrine before she can help me, and all it does is make me sleepy and wozey and dumb!
----the job counselor says that the only job training open is for to become a dishwasher at the local caferteria on-the-job-training.....12 hour days at the pots and pans line!
----etc..etc..etc..etc!"

many embrace the terrible Secret of ALCOHOL!
what is that terrible secret?
why it is that being drunk gets ya up into the spirit world, a much higher place than MOST "Mr Straights"
ever go to! "a jug of wine and Thou"......
thus an alcoholic has a kind of spirituality that is much much higher than most of the sober people ever ever have!
terrible price though....as a Guide once said, through a medium, that i read....."the drinker is indeed raised up to a higher level of spirit, but it is a dead end, he cannot get the higher! like of a hill next to a mountain where anyone who climbs it, thinks that they have Arrived! Once they see that the real high mountain is next to them, why they have to climb back down into the physical world before re-beginning their ascent up the True Mountain of spirit, from that hill"!
so...
as that hill is the only thing that is REAL, for the alkie, he will not let go!
"Sigmund Freud, i think, said...."in order for a man to let go of his nerosis, he must have something else better to reach out FOR"!
like a drowning man will cling *very* tightly to a floating stick, even when a rope is offered to him for to have him grab it to have him pulled to the dock: but first he must accept that the rope is a rope!!
as long as he does not see the rope or believe that the rope is a saving-device, he will cling to the *ONLY* thing that he knows, and that anyone else's suggestions could just well cause him to drown!
---more mother fuckers to tell him what to do, for "his own good", is the very very last thing that he wants to hear; thus he will cling to what he knows---that floating stick!

thus, many suggestions for the homeless end up being suggestions for cure that help the helpers: not the homeless!

the only way i can see True Help being given to the homeless, or to any other people who are not of the "mainstream", is.....
is to help each individual homeless person BECOME THEMSELVES!
Each Soul has talants and gifts, brought to the Incarnation, here, now: but somehow the signals got garbled and the "launch pad", the parents and upbringing was lacking in Love, was corrupted.
thus the inner gyroscope of "self-love-acceptance", is defective.
Inside this "stereo system" with miswired speakers, is am Amplifier with Golden Sounds and Music making Possibilities. a True Counselor would help such a "stereo system", that dysfunctional person, to
get in touch with his "true sounds", his true soul's Talants, so that this person can touch and then to activate these Talants and then to be able to bring them out into manifestations into the world and into his life!
---good advice for us "non-homeless"!

and THAT is my personal definition for what is a "homeless person"!
Anyone out of touch with his soul! Does not matter if he is a $120,000 a year CEO with that mansion on the hill, if he has lost the thread of his soul missions...he is spiritually homeless!!