Saturday, July 14, 2001

I ran into a lady today who was sitting outside of a fast food resturant. A local homeless lady, of high intelligence but kinda scattered in thought. i have run into her before, seems like a very intelligent person but she is of One Of many who I fear that i can not really get to know well....
Her first remarks were of this: "whenever i bring my raincoat it never rains and if i forget it ALWAYS does"! tone: angry sarcasim tinged with sadness...

brings home to me yet again.....
how HARD it is to not get into a "negative stance" when talking to someone. this time i caught the loop and stopped it. but golly, i find that much of the Bonding between people is IN sharing the negative, bonding in "fellow survivors of the life is a bitch then ya die" mode!! no social life if i do not feed their wants! I have enought trouble trying to overcome my childhood programming to be negative! from Mom to neighbors to relatives...it is in the air and how does a fish get beyond water and cows oxygen?!
the "oxygen" is that negativeness......
I am steeped like a tea bag in it...
[just how often do YOU, reader, join your friend and you two Put Down someone or something, sharing the Bond of Rapport between you?!]

that sharing is nearly much more important to 'psychic health" than what you share over!

So what could i tell her?
tell her about my cabin in the mountain heaven lands that awaits me, when i die? [I was SHOWN that cabin!!]
? ? ? !!
--might as well talk english to a turkish person!
If i tell her that life is wonderfull, she will not get her NEEDS met! she will not even understand my talk.
surely somewhere, in such a person, is a Soul that cries for Love and Light and Knowledge that there is a afterlife!!

see folks, this is the kernal of the NUT, the very very center of the great Blessings of having these Vision experiences...it is NOT merely that i know that there is life after death, it is that NOW i know that I can Truly know that Optimism has a meaning, now, as there is no "heat death of the universe:death" to end any bid for optimisms. most people, see, who are "down and negative and pessimistic"; they just "know" that ----why try anything as death ends it, why even bother, you can never win and no matter what you think feel or do...you will become rotted meat! pretty sunsets and Ethics and smiles, have no meaning
against that dead end sign called "thge tombstone"...
THAT is the thing that my Visions Dismiss! Now anything that i think, say, feel, or do....will have Eternal ramifications, i Know that!
now it is OK to be optimistic! there IS meaning to life.